Friday, October 30, 2009

Still awake!!

I'mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... still awake!!
Dammit ;P
So anyway... its friday!
It's... friday morning & I have been waiting for a certain call for... 31 hours & counting...
Damn... that sounds really long.
On a side note I should be expecting 2 emails today & if by the end of the day, I don't receive emails from either one of you, you'll get it on Monday, because I clearly stated to the both of you I want it by Friday.
Responsibility & credibility, I didn't point a gun at you & force you 2 to agree, I saw you both nod your heads, I assume you understanded my instructions.
Anyways, we'll see about that.

So I collected my contacts today, gonna officially start wearing them tomorrow, although I fear I'm gonna spend hours trying to take them out, because I had not much difficulty putting them on but god f**king dammit, taking out is just... Zzz...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/30/2009 02:47:00 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Just another day...

I waited for you the whole night, I was sick, coughing my lungs out.
And what did you do, you just replied: "Sorry... Go sleep bahhs."
I waited the whole night, I calm myself down & told myself I won't get agitated I won't raise my voice (honestly, I don't have any voice to raise also), but in the end... :(
My battery ran out around 6+, I turn off my phone & charged it, one of my biggest mistakes because I went to do other things forgetting about it & I miss the time when you messaged me, because I went to bathe.
I'm really stupid leh, if I had been on my phone the whole time I could have replied on the spot but I missed the chance.
Yes I know I lied that I went to school... I didn't want you to think that I fell asleep, because I really didn't.
You said yourself you would call when you reach home... up till now I dunno if you reach home already or not, I dunno why I just can't stop worrying for you.
I'll just continue to wait...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/29/2009 10:35:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Everything begins & end as a lie.

My title is so true, you said you will always be here for me & look where are you now? You said you read my blog daily, but what do you actually know?
All you knew was that I made you unhappy, make you speechless, confused, what about those efforts I put in to cheer you up when you're down, waiting for you when you had no one no matter how late, to accompany you when you're bored.
Have you forgotten those times we had as easily as you said you don't have any feelings more me anymore?

I highly doubt you want to chat with me when you reach home. You'll be so tired that you won't even remember I'm here waiting, but I will remain waiting until you call, because I said I would...

I have been judged unfairly by you, I never had a chance to defend myself, my death sentence has been pronouced the moment I confess my love to you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/28/2009 10:20:00 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

I will do what I can...

to destroy my life... I am now completely incapable of loving.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/28/2009 10:20:00 PM
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Wah kao!

Just woke up not long, I can 100% confirm...
I'm sick...

So about yesterday, well, pretty shit day but at the same time feels ok also.
Morning was doing the Entrepreneur project until about 5am then went to bed, missed my morning lessons, but no matter today also Philip Tan lesson so go today try catch up.
Went to Entrepreneur lesson, found out Yuan Fong sick didn't come, that bastard, I told him the day before I was going to assign work for him & Shing Hoong to do, he dare absent let me see, really don't want to live liao.
Wanted to assign work to Shing Hoong, but when I look at his face... I really can't do it, I dunno why!!
Everytime I look at him face I just feel like putting my fist right through it, I just can't stand the blank expression he gives me & I'm suppose to work with this guy for my project? And look what he's doing in class when teacher is giving the lecture on SWOT (Strength, Weaknesses, Opportunities & Threat, I remembered this without even looking at my book)

Bloody hell!! If teacher wasn't there I really will to give him a sharp kick to his fat ass to wake him up lor! Argh!

Afterwards bus home that time took same bus with Alan, found out that I'm will be stuck with this fellow for ALL 3 PROJECTS!! OMG!! Somebody kill me please... how to work with someone that can't even stand his face????
Omg ren liao lor, bo bian! After this module if ever got any module need to be groups one, I rather solo le.
Really cannot tahan group work, I flogged my Nitec results partly because of group project. Back then I was stupid to pick my best friends to work with, should have picked other people, at least when I tell them off won't be guilty of being harsh, where else I'm abit soft on my friends & tend to not be so harsh if they didn't do anything.
I don't care liao, this time my group members you all want to laze & not do anything, I'll go straight to the teacher & ask to pull out of the group let you all die.
Sorry reality is harsh, but I really don't want to repeat the mistakes I made le, I care alot for my results even if I don't look like.
I made a promise to a few that I will maintain my 3.5 GPA or increase it if possible, I won't let you all pull me down.

So enough ranting, yesterday you called after your paper, brighten up my day at least :)
Know you very pek chek over the paper le so tried kept whatever rant I had wanted to say, don't want to make you have more stress.
Today you'll be having your last paper, messaged you in the morning very surprised to see you wake le, I wonder if you slept at all last night, I hope you did, you need all the rest you can for your paper.
Saturday Val mummy ask me go Escape to celebrate Halloween at night, I wonder if I should ask you along too, scared that you got work can't go.
I will ask you later bah, see what you say.

Now dunno if want to go see doctor or go school, I missed Tan's lesson yesterday I don't want to miss today's one also, but can I concentrate?
Alright time to go do my Entrepreneur project, I heard from Alan his group already finish the 1st section, mines already 85% completed, better go finish it as much as I can.

I had dreamt of us being together, but I can't make it come true without your help.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/28/2009 08:54:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Omg!

I'm feeling so sick now.
Head spinning very badly, got a slight sore throat but more importantly my head feels like being hit by a truck, think I'm just going to turn in soon, really cannot tahan le.
Already taken medicine le but mind not working well enough to blog, I'll update today's properly when I wake up tomorrow.
I'm happy you called today, really resisting the urge to message you now but I don't wish to bother you studying.
So I'll say good night to you here.
I hope you will see into this.

Good night piggy, know you are resting now watching your favourite show & mugging after that, but don't turn in too late ok?
Going ahead to lalaland first, see ya!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/27/2009 09:49:00 PM
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The usual sucky Monday.

Shit day, don't ask, don't really feel like saying now.

Anyways, feeling very guilty for my actions earlier today.
I know now is not the time for this & I know how much shit you are going through today, you didn't have to tell me, I know.
I've been through it although only once, it felt like it only happened yesterday to me. I can understand the pressure you are going through & the last thing you really need was me who shouted at you the moment you decide to answer my call.

I'm really sorry, had I kept my emotions in check, our chat would have been more pleasant, I expected that we chat properly but of course expectations & reality are often different.
Given a chance to change things, I really wished I had been more understanding towards you.

I know at that moment during the call, those words of mine have pierced your heart without mercy, although you kept quiet I know on my side you were not feeling good at all, coupled with the stress you getting.
You probaly be wondering why haven't I stop since I know all this?
All I can say was, you were right in asking me to calm down which I wasn't at that time, it was just stupid little me, just shooting my mouth off without proper thought or considerations towards your feelings.

I feel very conflicted right now, I don't know if I should message you to wish you good luck again for your upcoming maths paper 1.
I do not wish to pressure you further, I'm slowly learning my mistake, which I hope its not too late.
What should I do? :(

I need to be more understanding & more thoughtful towards you... and I NEED to do it, not just say...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/27/2009 03:29:00 AM
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Monday, October 26, 2009

Thought things out.

New personal record!
91 hours of no sleep.
Man... thats fucking bad for my health, I really shouldn't attempt that again.
But I guess I sort of got a serious case of insomia for the past few days :S
Alcohol really is the best medicine for insomia.
Really not fun, not enough sleep really makes you do alot of crazy & very stupid things like anyhow think of certain things... if I continued not sleeping I most likely will have a mental breakdown.
Didn't have my proper meals also, didn't quite have the mood to eat.

Checked my phone & realise I'm such a fool, I really should have left you to study.
My apologys again, I know I have said enough 'sorrys' till you're sick of hearing them already, but I know that I'm in the fault & no point in trying to find excuses for my mistakes.

Went out with Val mummy on saturday, usual ECP, cycle.
Wasn't really enjoying myself due to the lack of sleep & just got more emo for fucking no reason.
I knew the messages I sent you is beginning to annoy you, I can tell. Sorry about that.
Anyways back to the cycling, wasn't really much people who went, just 4 person, me, mummy & 2 other guys whose name I can't remember.
I think one was called Ray? The other I really cannot remember but he looks like a slimmed down version of Shing Hong (my Higher NITEC classmate) which I dunno is a good or bad thing considering I'm not on very good terms with him, but they're 2 different person so I shouldn't lump them together.
Cycled like siao lor the whole time, just went as fast as I could, stopped when we reached the east end of ECP, had a break there, chat alittle, then rush like siao back to return bicyle, ps mummy didn't wait for you all :(

Bus 43-ed home, bought bak chor mee to eat for dinner, didn't even finish it jiu went bath and prepare go meet Kenny le.
Went to Social House (near Tangs, @ Clarke Quay) to club, paiseh ah Alan & Yuan Fong, but mummy didn't wanted to go, then I don't feel like ps-ing buddy, so bo bian ps you all instead ;P

@ Social House there drank a black label (or was it red label?) whisky which brand name I forgotten already (memory getting from bad to worse), can't remember how many cups I drank either but I assumed I drank quite abit because at some point I felt like puking, but I controlled because I don't want wait my friends see me like very weak always go drinking only I confirm puke.
But damn, it was really some hard liquor sia, on my 2nd cup which was the cup that i help Kenny tank, I already have a drunk drunk feeling liao.

Around 6+ this morning reach home? Totally blur, just cleaned myself up with a wet cloth then fall flat asleep in my sister's room. Lucky she doesn't use the room (she sleeps with my parents) otherwise confirm tio kp because of the liquor stench :x

Paiseh ah, today's post is abit dry, because some photos are with Kenny & I'm lazy to upload a few from my phone.

Today stone at home, lazy to do anything.
I think you really angry with me bah, because now you don't even reply my message le, although I dunno if you're angry or just wanted to fully concentrate on your revision, I'm guessing the second one, so hope I'm right :S

Anyways its late, I'm hungry, mac has arrived & waiting for me, time to watch The Ugly Truth & eat before sleep, school tomorrow, I can feel the monday blues creeping up on me already.

Virgo

Virgo is earthy & represents the sixth sign of the zodiac. You belong to a group of people known for their perfectionism & highly analytical minds. There's a bit of a joke about how precise & demanding Virgos are but when you think about it, what's wrong with being tidy, organised and clean? In a way, you are misunderstood & your attention to detail, your desire for excellence & hygiene is not as bad as some might think.

You have a rather unusual preoccupation of being extremely fastidious and also critical of the world. Some of the people that know you feel as if your standards are way too high to live up to. If only they knew just how critical you are of yourself! You don't really expect any more of others than you do of yourself. And after a time those that hang out or live with you start to learn some vital lessons about the true meaning of work & achievement. This due to your high standards.

When you do express your criticism of something it's more than likely because you're analysed & summed up a situation correctly before acting out your thoughts. While some people might find this an annoying habit, others will never hesitate to involve you in their work. These people recognise your natural talents & will invite you onto their social scene & involve you in their personal projects, as your expertise is highly valued.

You make a wonderful impression with your skilful insights & broad-based knowledge. Simply put, you are a most interesting person to be with. When others get to know you a little more, you can be a fascinating person with all sorts of useful titbits of information.

On the most practical level you really like to do things properly, meticulously by working through the work or service you perform on a daily basis. It doesn't matter how small or large the task, you take pride in how well you do it. You investigate things before diving in. Once you have all the information required you complete your task to the best of your ability.

Others who aren't quite as precise in the way they carry out their own work find it hard dealing with you. In your own mind there's no point in doing anything half-heartedly. You'd rather not do it at all. You are very clear on this.

Time is also important to you. So you like to make sure you use it well. It would be unusual to find a disorganised Virgo. Keeping a diary and making lists are a favourite pastime of yours. Of course having the right pen & paper to keep your lists is just as important so a favourite hangout for some Virgos is the local stationery supply store. It sounds a little weird sure, but you do need to have the right pen to write with!

You are cautious about all manner of things from how much the food bill costs to what type of person is just right for you in your social or romantic life. You have a hawk eye & can spot an error a mile away. If that food bill is out by 5 cents you'll pick it up.

Your Virgoan antenna is sharp as a tack & you'll pay special attention to the fine detail of any subject matter. You're also very well read & interested in a variety of topics. You consider yourself an eternal student of sorts.

Some people think you're shy & unassuming but this is only because you cautiously like to observe and analyse people & situations before jumping to conclusions. You do have a keen intelligence & a capacity for learning but prefer to make your decisions based on sound judgments. Practical facts are preferable to naive or airy fairy beliefs according to you.

If you're born between the 24th August & 3rd September you really don't like to be the centre of attention. You become quite embarrassed if singled out in the crowd. You'd prefer to remain anonymous. You are the quiet achiever who likes to remain in the background concentrating on getting things done right without too much hullabaloo.

If you're born between the 4th & 14th of September you bring a clear and decisive viewpoint to any matter at hand. You're a quick thinker and although you are logical in the way you live your life, you do have moments of intuition that surprise even you! Don't become too serious though!

Allow yourself to express your youthful & innocent qualities if you are born between the 15th & 23rd of September. Venus, your co-ruler adds sensuality to your character. You will always remain young & pleasure seeking. Growing old gracefully doesn't appeal to you. Life is to be lived to the fullest.

I'm confirmed you have read about my horoscope characters le bah, so I just bolded the part I want you to notice
I'm trying to be understanding as hard as I can, really.

These nights without you has been hard.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/26/2009 01:02:00 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Fail-ology part 1.

*throws stone*
Bounce once, bounce twice, sinks into sea.
*throws another stone*
Bounce once, sinks into sea.
*throws stone*
Bounce once, bounce twice, bounce trice, sinks into sea.
*throws stones*
...

The invisble Post-It notes always remain pasted on my face, each carrying a worry for you.

Just reached home not long, currently sitting at 64 hours 11 seconds without sleep + gym today.
I didn't get through the interview, 1st time I got outright rejected for a job.
The interview ended hours before my message to you, I was just blindly wondering around Clarke Quay, sitting by the Singapore River just stoning away until I felt better enough to message you.
You didn't even asked how it went, yes I know I cracked a joke back to you as a reply, but it was to cover my unhappiness...
After that you I had not heard a single word from you at all.
Went to Changi Beach to stone there till late, my feelings are just took a spiral down, where are you this time when I need you again, more then the other time?
I guess I was long forgetten by you, buried in your studies, or with him, or enjoying yourself hanging out with friends, or just simply wanted to avoid me, to force me to rest.

As for me I sat there, waiting and waiting for your message, waiting for my phone's message tone to ring, seconds seems like hours, minutes seems like days and hours seems like weeks, but your message never came.

I messaged a couple of times, called you even, all I got was silence from you.

I picked myself up & forced myself home, luckily everyone is asleep when I reach home, I did not want any of my family to see my sad face.
Stomach is growling & gastric is kicking in, I didn't had any dinner or even a proper lunch today, but I really did not feel like eating at all, just drank some warm milk earlier.

I've just read your blog, I'm not hurt by what was written and understand what you trying to make me understand.
Of course I noticed the important points of what you purposely highlighted in bold to catch my attention.
The last bolded line was the centre of my attention.
I knew immediately what you are refering to... it was something I had said to you the previous night on phone.
I'm sorry for what I've said to you, I know you are quite tired from my sorrys.
But please if you want me to feel better, accept my sincere apology.

I'm very sorry about it!!
*bows head down*

It's already the 65th hour of no sleep le, I'm still waiting for your message or call, I can't stop worrying about you no matter how hard I try.
I really wish to hear from you soon.
Later on going meet Valerie mummy go cycling & later tonight clubbing with Kenny & my ITE classmates, I doubt I'll have the energy to dance, most likely will just be drinking till I drop dead.
Maybe thats the only way to make myself sleep.
Waiting... still waiting...

~.Tags replies.~
♠Gina: Thanks for the tag.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/24/2009 03:08:00 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Friday, October 23, 2009

Confuse... lost.

I don't know what kind of emotions I have right now?
I really hate those emo feelings in me, its because I let myself drown in sorrow that I begin to lose everything, even her love.

I should have made a silent exit out of her life, probaly is better for her.
I was sure of my determination when I made the call to her, but after hearing her voice & chatting with her, my determination just came crumbling down.
Worst still, I made her cry again, I swear I'm seriously the worst kind of person in this world, my existance bring about her unhappiness..
Hearing her just brings back flashes of bad memories to me, its makes me what to die, last night I was about to lose myself.

Plus the fatigue from not sleeping for almost a day plus is really starting to push me down and yet those unwanted emo feelings kept coming in, I wanted to keep my promise not to show it out to her, but I couldn't control it.

You're right, that personality of mine is really dragging me down, of all the positive personalities I have I had to always show this negative one.

I haven't slept for 46 hours already, I stayed up waiting for your message.
But there wasn't any messge, it never came.
I guess I won't hold anymore hope that I will have a place in your heart le.
Over the past few days I may delete my blog, I don't wish for her to see me upset or anything, then slowly I will disappear as abruptly as I have appeared in her life.

Life now is going back before the time in Changi Beach...
The möbius strip continues...

Time to steel myself for the day to come, housework before I leave the house, gym & finally a job interview.
Where's the Dexter with the unwavering confidence?
Come back back to me please, I can really use your help now.

Run, turn around & run away, run till I can't anymore, just so you will never see into the darkness in my heart.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
The King is losing his mind

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/23/2009 10:27:00 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Very very tired.

Very tired, haven't slept for 31 hours, 28 minutes, 19 seconds le
Gonna eat my dinner while waiting for her reply, then maybe go sleep after bah.

I'm forgetting my 1st rule I set a long time ago... never hold any hope in my heart in everything, a king don't hope.

Ciao!

If I was right by you, you won't shed a tear, because I won't let you. I hope I had given you confidence, even if it's just a little bit.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/22/2009 08:46:00 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Zzz...

Bored.Ignored.Lonely.
Someone kill me please.

Enduring is easier said then done.
Suddenly it feels like not even you, read my blog anymore...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/22/2009 04:20:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Slack course... happy day :D

Definition of Business Marketing - Marketing is the study of how transactions are initiated, moltivated, facilitated and consummated...

4 Ps of Marketing

-Products
+Need VS Want

-Price
+Penetration Pricing
+Innovation Pricing
+Competitive Pricing

-Place
+Location
+Access
-Promotion-

STOP!!!!

Wah lau wei... school end liao my mind still thinking of school work...
Truth be told, Entrepreneurship is an interesting module, but I can't see how isit related to my bloody course (Mechanical Engineering *catches breath* and Electrical Design, bloody f**king long name!!)

I'm back at school today with a topsy turvey hairstyle (I don't know to style my current hair, too short).
Nothing much today, I caught up pretty fast from all the previous Air-Con Drafting lessons that I missed... well the practical portion not theory.
But I'm a genius, finished the up my first assignment as well as the second one that I missed last week & the third one that was given today.
Piece of cake once I understand whats going on ;P

Got abit of nagging from Mrs Wee about my attendance for appearing for 1 day and disappearing for 3 & a half days (I was sent home on Tuesday remember?).
Mr Moh came in talk to me about the world skills competition thingy, urging me to practise my Autocad Inventor more often, seeing that I got blackmailed into this, I had no choice but to get serious about that bah.
Not because I really wanted to but because it can benefit me in ways such as helping me get into a Poly or U because of the added benefits, so yeah that the bribe that moltivated me.

Collected my new course books today, dammit they're all so dam heavy, had the time of my life heaving those home, I feel like a donkey...
On the way home still let too bloody stray dogs chase, think it because of the delicious KFC dinner that I was holding?
Ran like hell, carrying 4 bloody heavy books, making sure I don't spill my dinner, having my pouch bouncing off my face and nearly letting my spec slipped off cos of my sweat..

Guess I can say my stamina has improved alittle, all that workout is paying off huh?
Didn't feel really tired from all that running ;D
Anyways, maybe tomorrow morning I'll hit the gym before school?
We'll have to see if I can wake up early enough 1st ;P

Now mood feeling quite good, it was nice to hear you voice again after so many days of silence, its all I need to last me till the day your Os is over :D
I'm seriously anticipating and at the same time fearing the day I meet you, because I'm afraid that you make not like me in person.
But I know what I want, I know you have thought that you are not the type of girl for me & that us being together seems impossible.

Girl, push those thoughts away! My feelings for you are real, my need to be with you, to love you with everything I got, is strong enough to crush whatever expectations you think I may have.

This isn't an infatuation or sweet-talking.
It started from the day I sat alone at the beach and has built up more when you told me that I stole your heart.

Bored, zai pai during Entrepreneur lesson, retarded hairstyle right?

Today's donkey is drawn on the mirror, can you spot it?

I will wait for you silently, patiently...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/20/2009 09:11:00 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Monday, October 19, 2009

It's a new week.

2nd week of school... I'm blogging so... that can't be good.
Which means I didn't go school... again.
Man Mr Moh will surely have alot to say because I miss today's lessons which he personally tell me not to skip...

Oh well, whats done is done.
I need to pull my shit together, I hate it when all the things that get me down come together at once.
Completely destroys my mood to study or do anything.
Nobody seems to understand how I feel, have any of you lost a close relative before?
Can you understand how I was feeling over the weekends? No?

FINE!!
Emotions... are such useless things.
*kills emotions*

I will stop trying to get concern from anyone, anymore.
Its time to climb back up to that top that rightfully belongs to me!

I'm the King!!
*ROAR*
I'm sorry that I've been a burden, it won't be anymore.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/19/2009 12:12:00 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Down, down, down, down...

Nothing happy to update really...
Heard news from my parents yesterday that my father's youngest brother, Uncle Jeffery is dead, died from asthma attack.
I dunno what to say, this is the first time I was affected by this kind of news.
I never been this moody even when both my grandfathers died, maybe because I wasn't close with them bah.
I can say me & my brother was really close with Uncle Jeff when I was a small kid, remember he used to bring me out often, take me to play & buy things for me, never scolded me once no matter what I did, really a good uncle.
We didn't contact for more then 10 years since he had a conflict with my grandmother for certain things that she did out of a folly to his wife & children.
Finally heard news of him, it had to be such grim news
*head goes down*
Hais... :'(

Why do the people who are generally good always die so early?
What about those people that deserved death, why aren't they dead.
This world is so goddam unfair!! :(

After reading a certain piggy's blog (yes, I do check your blog everyday too, for updates), I feel like I died alittle inside, emotions just went further downhill, I really don't understand why... :'(

Have I not made myself clear enough?
Why do you still think that way?
I knew something was wrong, but you said you're fine, you want me to share my problems with you, I can do the same for you too, all you need to is just ask.

I feel like I'm on a möbius strip(yes, Fion I went to look up the meaning) in everything right now, getting to now where at all in life...
I know I said I would never show out my sadness again, but I just can't help it, I couldn't find anyone to talk to, I was on the edge of going crazy, this blog was the only place I scream out all that pent-up frustration!
Right now my confidence is just plunging into a all-time low...
Who will lend me a hand to pull me up?

Guess Eeyore really suits me character-wise, I'm as sad & depressed like him...

I need you... more then you think so.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Noted.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/18/2009 08:34:00 PM
0 people in the crowd heard my words

Friday, October 16, 2009

Short update.

Hai hai, a short update before I go to gym.
Last few days has been a bitch because... MY HAIR IS SHORT!!
So not used to it lor, my fringe is so short I can see everything clearly >.<
And my bad habit of touching my fringe when I'm bored still around, but leh so short touch also a few seconds only *sigh*

Oh well have to blame that stupid section head, when she give me the result slips that time she also didnt comment on my hair need to cut, next day only jiu send me home mid-lessons, dammit!

Anyway whats done is done, no point keep whinning about it...
Argh, I should be at the gym hours ago, but I overslept well not as bad as somebody, who is still soundly asleep at the time of my posting *looks at piggy* -.-

End here time to change & hit the gym!

A special change today for my piggy, a piggy that looks like you!!

Counting down the days till I'm able to meet up with you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/16/2009 02:57:00 PM
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Thursday, October 15, 2009

Update.

So long didn't update, I'll update later today when I reach home.

You have not been here for days too...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/15/2009 09:22:00 AM
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Monday, October 12, 2009

Back to school!!

As promised to my piggy, I'm updating my blog today!
Last saturday went to my Nitec classmate, Qi'En's 21st birthday party @ his house, he stay @ CCK >.<
Travelled there with Kim Chuah then we got lost there had to wait for Qi'En come bring us.
At there kind of awkward because only a few of us :x
Ok la photo time, eh... only got 1 photo got me in it, wan see the rest please go to:

Left to right: ahDeX, Toa Peh Gong, Qi'En, Kim Chuah

If you wondering where's is Toa Peh Gong, look closely at the picture between me & Qi'En, LOLS!

So tiring today! Had to wake up so early to prepare for school, someone also message me thought I haven't wake up hor?
I more zhuai early early jiu wake up le ;P
School was... bad... nah I jest, it was... horrible!!
I feel blackmailed lor, kena forced to study Autocad Inventor!! Grrr... long story, save for another day, actually not really very long la just lazy to repeat & repeat, just the ViPs around me know can le, others doesn't matter.
School timetable is being a bitch ending at 5pm today, tomorrow 3, wednesday 6!!!
And thursday 3pm again, lucky friday maintain no school.
So long weekends for me for another semester!! Yay~~!!
But this sem is going to be stressful, I'm gonna have to give it my best shot!!
Jiayou!! Goal for this sem!! GPA... 4!! RAWR!!
I jest... maintain my current GPA will be good enough le, but I want to at least try to score straight As for my 3 modules ;P

Seriously, I think I need to cut down on my gaming time & devote more to my studies & to someone. Must be clear of what kind of future I want, not wasting too much of my life on video games.
Sooner or later my in-game friends will start to kpkb @ me le, especially my guild leader but for the sake of my future I need to shift my piorities.

My eyesight these days are getting blurry, I really hope my contacts are ready faster, can't wait to stop wearing glasses!! FASTER READY!! I VERY THE ANXIOUS LIAO!!

*YAWN*

Nights slowly becoming sleepless nights with endless thoughts of you in my mind...

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: UPDATED!! As promised!!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/12/2009 08:40:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 7, 2009

No updates.

Yesterday went with Kenny to gym.
Day before slack at home, today also slack at home.
Nothing interesting happened.
Bored~

I wish to see you now.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Qi'En: Saturday will see into liao ;P Relinked you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/07/2009 08:50:00 PM
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Monday, October 5, 2009

Crappiest Mid-Autumn Festival ever!!

Sians-ology! This year's mid-autumn festival really not as good as the year before lor...
Ok blog about few days back de.
Friday went to gym with Kenny, had lunch @ mac then spent an hour there then left, went to Chin Yin's house to eat mooncakes, because my house don't have, but eat into weird weird kind of mooncake... later know its not the normal kind de, its pineapple filling -.-
After that later in the night went out with Nelson, Teng, Posic, Adrian & Kenny to watch...

FAME!

Crappy movie la, not our type of movie, watch until feel like sleeping...
After movie went to have prata @ Tampines 201 there, hear them talk about their NS the funny & stupid things, around 4am+ reach home, dam shagged.

Next day woke up early, lucky got daddy fetch me & Kenny to Bedok interchange so we had lunch @ Mac since we was early, miracle Yuan Fong & his friend no late, latest was Val mummy's friends.
Reach ECP, wasn't alot people there that day, as compared to previous weekends.
Cycled to the skate park, slack there, made Yuan Fong do stupid stunts at the pit again, really funny to watch him run about like a monkey.

After that went to the food centre to buy some drinks and rest then cycled back to return the bicycles but...
On the way back, accidently hai into mummy fall down & injure herself, shouldn't have taken that shortcut... stupid me >.<

Late return the bicycles got charged for late fees, total $15 for the 5 of us who are late, the guy did not count mummy's share because she feel & got injured (& partly I think it's also because she's a girl + chio... Zzz).
Just for freaking 10mins late... WTH!! Hais no choice lor, just pay lo.
If know likedat I also don't mind falling then won't kena charge for late fees ;P
Stupid ojichan (that guy was actually quite young la, around 25+, so say him ojichan abit not right ;P)

After that went to meet Teng at Orchard cineleisure, since mummy can't come because of her injury, only me & Kenny bus to Orchard.
Ate dinner & then after that meet Gary & Eugene, after seeing there's no movies to watch we went to Far East there to do abit of window shopping.
Nel didn't come because of his own reasons which I'm kind-of-lazy-to-type-it-out.
Gary & Eugene went to have their ear pierce-d, their virgin piercings :x
After that something happen which.once.again.I'm.too.lazy.to.repeat.about.it.on.my.own.blog.
So yeah, Kenny left cause he needed to, left me, Teng, Eugene & Gary.
Went back to Orchard Cine, up to E2Max, met an old PSS schoolmate, played L4D till about 1am+, took NR6 home.
Chat with Teng about both our relationship stuff & his NS life @ my house downstairs till about 4am likedat then finally...

HOME SWEET HOME!!

Sunday slack. Today slack because it was raining like a bitch, made me feel like staying home, wanted to go gym de, nevermind tomorrow going with Kenny.
Played games, watch anime, surf net until now lo.

In another 10mins I've to sms someone to nag her eat medicine le, today a certain piggy very guai, revising for her Os. I shall not disturb her until her medicine time, hehe. When the time comes, I'll bomb her phone till she eats her medicine!!

*evil laughter*

Hard working piggy??!! Impossible!!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/05/2009 11:06:00 PM
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Sunday, October 4, 2009

Shag-ology, part 2.

Ps I've to repost the same donkey picture again. Because my face now is serious likedat from the lack of sleep, but this is nothing compared to my both buddies who are currently serving their NS.
Very emotional night for me after a long shag day.
Many of times tonight my tears almost want to come out liao & my heart really goes out to one of my buddies.
Many things to say, I'll save it for when my mind is more awake.
Going to sleep.
Sweet dreams everyone.

I'm touched by everything that you've done for me & I'm certain of my feelings now, I'll wait for you.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Donkey upgraded!! Cuter mah? ;P

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/04/2009 05:42:00 AM
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Saturday, October 3, 2009

Shag-ology.

So shag now.
Why am I up so late?
Because although I very shag already from the day @ the gym & have to wake up @ 10am to prepare to go out cycle with mummy & friends, but I just wanted to stay up so I can call someone.
Who? Don't tell you all, only the person who received the call will know when she read this ;P
Hmmmm... quite abit to blog leh, but I brain spoil + lazy so I'll update everything one shot tomorrow.
Just wanted to post so that someone have something to read when she check the blog later on ;P
So I'll will end with a...

PS:I wanted to save this picture for another time, but I guess somebody can't wait. Cute mah? The donkey?

You did not need to steal this heart, it was given to you from the day you messaged me while I was at the shores of Changi.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/03/2009 03:56:00 AM
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Friday, October 2, 2009

Exam results & movie!

Exam results are out!! (click to see enlarged version)
Yay!! 3.5/4 hahas!!
Can't believe lor, I slack, pong school, late hand in assignments!
Still can get 3.5 ah? So if I don't do all that, I get 4 liao?!
Or am I just a genius? Must be la! (admit it piggy! I'm a genius! :P)

Yesterday went to Tampines Mall to watch:

SURROGATES!

Ok la not a bad show, interesting to think what happens to a world when you don't have to leave the safety of your home & live your life outside as a robot.
You can be anyone you want, look anyway you like, & won't have to worry about injuring or killing yourself, reducing fatality rates in times of war.
In one scene during the movie it was shown that soldiers were controlling their robot self from the safety of their main command post, one guy got killed and then he just switched a new robot to continue fighting.
Overall, I would say 7/10 bah. Compared to past few shows I watched recently, not as interesting.

Going gym soon with Ken. Need go prepare, so I'll end with a retarded picture of Kenny.

3 SWORDS ZORRO! NO WAIT- ITS 3 SWORDS KENNY!! Except Zorro is more cool then you! You look slightly retarded ;P
Top picture: Kenny
Lower picture: Zorro, from One Piece

And my dear piggy this is for you...

STOP STEALING MY DONKEYS!! ;P

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Zzz... like to steal so much, steal my heart then... :x

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 10/02/2009 01:41:00 PM
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Thursday, October 1, 2009

RISE & SHINE! PART 2!!

*AHCHOO*
What was that? Did someone just miss me?
Nah, must be someone scold me, otherwise also won't sneeze.

GOOD MORNING!!
I have no idea why I am awake so early, even after going to bed @ about 3am+.
KAO! My brother is snoring like a bitch, but cant blame him, he haven't slept for... erm... erm...
*count fingers*
52 hours!! Yup 52 hours.
Siao.

Last night's work @ Prime Supermarket was just like everytime lor...
It's a boring-as-hell work and very low paid, for alot of work done.
Used to get about $20+ for just that 3 hours+ of work.
Last night only got $12.50 (each), me & Jeremy agree, unless they get their shitty ass pay up we're never working for them again.

Lucky we last night slack quite abit on the job, fooled around trying to disturb the staff while they work, such as shooting rubber bands at them when they aren't looking.
Me & Jeremy was having fun shooting at this bad tempered old staff, who kept bossing us around (you should see his surprised look when the rubber band smack his face *falls laughing*)

Oh god, wish Nel & Teng wasn't in the army, then can jio them go work this job, can't jio Kenny because people now part of SAF liao le, under contract cannot work for others.
Remembered last time, the 4 of us whatever part-time also work together. Prime-mart stock taking, office renovation work for Albert... awwww... fun days.

Hais, I guess this year's mid-autmun festival won't be same without them around.
Anyways today got a guest coming over to stay, so I won't be blogging until tomorrow, don't miss me too much! Ciao!

Went to dig some old photos out from my Friendster, enjoy!
PS: There was no picture of my working last night, because the staff say I cannot use my camera anyhow snap, like hell I can't also not say I snap their secrets or what :\

Introducing my gay buddies from top to bottom: Kenny, Teng Hong & Nelson!

My evidence of them slacking during work!!

Another picture during work de.
People! Want to snap photos like a pro? Let Ken & Teng teach you!

Everytime I look at this photo I can't stop myself from laughing, I remember this when I treated them to Fish & Co & we each ordered our 1st alchoholic drink, Nelson & Kenny got the shittiest drinks ever! Bloody Mary & Virgin Mary!! Taste like crap!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahas!