Sunday, September 27, 2009
Insomia... wth...
Soooo tired now sia, my legs are busted...
But I can't sleep :( Been trying to since 11pm until now.
Whatever position I slept my mind just won't shut down.
Dexter ah Dexter why having insomia now?
What am I hoping for? Why was I so stubborn earlier today especially after your call, refusing help from everyone, keep standing up after I fall, why won't I just stay down & give up like I should?
I feel so dam useless, like I wasted all those hours learning something, but in the end I learnt nothing at all, because I seem to turn a deaf ear to other's advice.
Doesn't that reflect everything that seems to happen to me in my life now?
"Keep hopes, because with hope, it brings a better tomorrow."
you said that didn't you?
"Hope is a DISEASE for the soul."
you said that too...
Should I have any hope in my heart or not, can anyone tell me?
Exactly... WHAT AM I THINKING?
When I made this blog I tell myself I shall never hold any hopes for anything, which is why I was truly happy over the past few days, because I didn't have to hope for something that will never come.
WAKE UP DEXTER!!
*slap**slap*
*pinch*
Get your confidence back up, disappoint those that tried to kick you down!!
I'm sorry guys(& gals), this will be my last I show my weakness out, I'll NEVER shed a single tear or emo over anyone. anything or any matter again.
Loneliness is my best friend, instead of rejecting him, I'll trust it more then anyone else.
JIAYOU DEXTER!!
But I can't sleep :( Been trying to since 11pm until now.
Whatever position I slept my mind just won't shut down.
Dexter ah Dexter why having insomia now?
What am I hoping for? Why was I so stubborn earlier today especially after your call, refusing help from everyone, keep standing up after I fall, why won't I just stay down & give up like I should?
I feel so dam useless, like I wasted all those hours learning something, but in the end I learnt nothing at all, because I seem to turn a deaf ear to other's advice.
Doesn't that reflect everything that seems to happen to me in my life now?
"Keep hopes, because with hope, it brings a better tomorrow."
you said that didn't you?
"Hope is a DISEASE for the soul."
you said that too...
Should I have any hope in my heart or not, can anyone tell me?
Exactly... WHAT AM I THINKING?
When I made this blog I tell myself I shall never hold any hopes for anything, which is why I was truly happy over the past few days, because I didn't have to hope for something that will never come.
WAKE UP DEXTER!!
*slap**slap*
*pinch*
Get your confidence back up, disappoint those that tried to kick you down!!
I'm sorry guys(& gals), this will be my last I show my weakness out, I'll NEVER shed a single tear or emo over anyone. anything or any matter again.
Loneliness is my best friend, instead of rejecting him, I'll trust it more then anyone else.
JIAYOU DEXTER!!
A single tear for you & I walled up my heart.
♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King
what did i do so wrong that you had to leave me alone ... at 9/27/2009 03:04:00 AM
0 people in the crowd heard my words
0 people in the crowd heard my words
