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Day 13 & 14

2010-03-06T06:00:00.005+08:00

In this 2 days I watched...

TWICE!

Once with 2 pretty girls (Weiting & Krist), the other with my 3 buddies (Ken, Nel & Teng) :x
Overall not a bad movie, dam funny for some parts. Most memorable scene is where NoNo & Jeremy dance "Sorry, sorry" to distract the police, sibei epic! Hahas!

Ok, update.
Yesterday was a dam good day la, didn't get debared from exams dam happy lor! Shared this happiness with only a few people, those of you should know ;)
After that met Weiting & her friend Krist (PS, your real name really quite a task to remember :x) @ Toa Payoh MRT then train down Bugis to treat her eat, for her birthday de (sorry! it had to be belated, I was really busy the past weeks >< couldn't celebrate earlier with you).
Ate @ Sakae, 1st time I eat so little @ Sakae, yeah we had a buffet but for some reason I couldn't eat much, I guess I ate lesser then that time with Meiyun (that was almost 5 months ago, but I still remember anyways :P), either way the 2 girls also didn't eat much, but since they're girls, thats excusable.
Walked around abit then decide to catch a movie, went to Illuma to watch 做人.
Afterwards went to Bugis street walk walk, only Weiting shopped because she rice we poor :( (no lahs, just kidding ;P)
Weiting the voice very soft, then keep disturbing her because she is the only one wearing uniform (Krist & me in civilian clothing ;P) & is really short (shorter then me by 1 head, but unfair comparison la, as I'm quit tall :x) everything on escalator will disturb her.
After that sent Krist home 1st because Weiting still don't want go home so early. Sent her all the way home to her block downstairs, along the way chatted quite abit, at her block downstairs also. After that ownself bus back to Punggol... bus dam slow la, should have trained home... Zzz...
Learnt about something, but won't say it here... yet :x

Today, woke up around 10am+
Feed the 2 turtles then prepare go out le... later wake up that time need help them change water liao!! HELP!! :x
Went out met Weiting around 2, went to AMK there the KFC to eat, she wasn't hungry so I eat only. Chat till around 3pm+ GalGal DJ called, because she was nervous for her piano exam, tried my best to calm her down, but kind of hard when your hands are oily >.<
Hope GalGal DJ don't blame me for trying to end the call early & thanks, I know my voice very deep ;)
Afterwards send Weiting to the MRT station, then went to AMK library to study with See Miang & Co.
Studied till around 6+ or was it 7+? Aiya don't remember, met up with Ken, wanted to have dinner at AMK hub but Nel suggest go Changi Village eat, so we bus back to Punggol to meet him to DRIVE us there... That officer... AIR FORCE OFFICER LEH!!!! Dunno how to drive to AMK hub lor... Singapore's future looks bleak... Hahahahahahas!
Wanted to ask GalGal DJ to come along lor, but she replied late so... no chance :S

Ate dinner @ Changi Village (HOKKIEN MEE), after that Nel drove us back, Ken & Teng come over my house till around 10pm+ then we left for Tampines Mall to watch 做人 (again!) saw into Peng Siong (PSS classmate), small world huh?

Day 14,
Back on air~
Sorry GalGal DJ, didn't update yesterday, hai you nothing to read.
Read your blog le, cute guinea pig :D
And don't think too much about your piano exam le bah.
Whats past is past, you've done your best le!
Messaged you but you didn't reply after that le, guessed you must be asleep.
Oh btw, I not sure if I told you already but, I gave wrong info, take bus 969 from Woodlands interchange to go to Tampines, not 965 (that will end you up in Sengkang ><).
Miss chatting with you on MSN, but looks its going to be abit hard considering that- yeah I read about it le ><
Don't worry, anything can still call me or message me (hopefully the next time you call my hands won't be oily like earlier ><)
Alrights, eyes closing~
BoiBoi DJ signing off!
Good nights- I mean... GOOD MORNING! :x

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Day 12.

2010-03-03T20:57:00.002+08:00

Didn't go school today.
Woke around 9+, can still go to school de.
But I just have a bad feeling something bad will happen today, so didn't go.
But something bad really happened...

Stayed at home all day, watching 海派甜心. Finally finished watching it le.
Dam touching la especially towards the end part.
Around 5pm+ left house to go gym... ALONE. Ken not free.
Finished that time went to CP to walk walk abit.
Then something happened...

While walking at CP I heard a familar laughter, turn around & saw into someone that looked like her, but look again she disappear le, looked around but can't find her at all.
Whats with me? Suddenly my mood changed emo... I told myself when I go for this haircut, its not only to just change my looks but to let go of all memories of past relationships.
Recently been because keep watch 海派甜心 see Rainie Yang, she really resembles you in some ways, thats why thinking of you... & maybe because I also discussed about you with GalGal DJ bah.

I guess from today on, I won't eat curry puffs anymore.
Today will be the day I ate my last curry puff.
If you all didn't know before, I would always eat curry puffs whenever I miss you.
Thats because curry puffs is one of your most favourite food, I will always miss the time when you forced fed me curry puff even though I don't want.
Although I always give you that face but actually I like it because its you feeding me-

DEXTER CHUA! Wake up! ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT LE!
DO YOU WANT TO EMO THE REST OF YOUR LIFE?!
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
I FORBID YOU TO THINK OF HER EVER AGAIN LE!
I want you to go sleep now!
Wake up that time, you will not remember a thing about today!
Today did not exist!
Nothing has happened today!

Day 12,
Today, there will be no broadcast.
GalGal DJ you were at his house?
Hope you know what you are doing bah.

I sent you a message, I'm off to bed.
Sorry day 12 had to be so gloomy.
I promised tomorrow will be better alrights?
Good nights.

我的泪流在心里, 学会放弃...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Day 11.

2010-03-02T20:43:00.005+08:00

I'm angry. I'm not going to say why, but I'm angry.
With who? Here's a clue, you comment on my FB's status, I saw le, didn't even bother to read I delete liao. I'm sure you know why, don't need me to say more.
*instant angry gone*

Normal Tuesday, fully understand how to do ETTV & Cooling Load calculations le, ACDS exam is almost set, now left theory then I'm fully confident for ACDS exam. Mr Moh's module... that one I think seriously need to mug le.

Today late for lesson. Come down bus 65 that time saw Yuan Feng, sneak up behind him & K!! his head! Hahas! He almost want turn around beat people liao lor, but he dare beat me mah??!! *stares* *devil rise out* hahas, doubt he dare also.
Lesson for one hour only jiu... FINISH SCHOOL liao!!

Today is also a very sad day for... not me! My emo long haircut :(
Thanks for being with me for this 4 years+.
But I no longer love you anymore, I have someone else le, I'm sorry to say but from today onwards we won't be seeing each other again... goodbye...
*sobs*
*instant happy*
Ok so now I'm so in love with my new haircut, it needs to be slightly longer on the side jiu perfect le ^^ So no photos now ;P
But I will have to quit specs le & go full time contacts.
Because I look better without specs in this haircut, so I have to say goodbye to my specs also le.
So both emo long haircut & specs, I hope you 2 can understand my feelings ok? Goodbye le...

Random photo time!

My 'slim' sugarcane juice cup... everyone's one else is 'large' sugarcane cup lor, why must mine so special? :(

Walking towards SK gym with Ken... OMG! So dam far...

After one hour still so far!! (kidding only luhs ;P)

Is it us or we imagining things from the heat? Surfing around the field here?

My catch from my last prawning session... 5 tangos down only, at least better then my very 1st prawning session... remember mah CY? >.<

Day 11,
BoiBoi DJ is on air!!
2 hours 5 mins day 12 will say hello le!!
Welcoming only GalGal DJ's call-in ^^
But you went offline le :(
Hahas, I just online MSN, see you busy so thought don't disturb you.
Sorry I came online so late >.<
Nevermind its alright :)

I updated my blog le! Hope from this post you noticed something similar between us ;)
365th day, I wonder what kind of day will you be?
But I'm sure when that day arrives, lots of unexpected surprises will happen!
But friday, can come faster mah?

An emergency road guide broadcast for GalGal DJ!! To get to Tampines CPF building take 965 from Woodlands interchange, sit all the way till Tampines interchange, Tampines CPF building is nearby, you won't miss it :)
Hope this broadcast helped you!

Wishes GalGal DJ you, have a sweet dream that will keep you asleep till the morning! Good nights! :)

Lots of stars I can see from my house here, hmmm... wonder if you can see any from your house? Shall end here with a song I promised for you, Written In The Stars by Westlife. Take a moment to listen my music playlist ok? :)

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Day 10.

2010-03-01T20:10:00.002+08:00

So tired. Because last night I only slept about 3 hours. But I guess someone is more tired then me since she never sleep at all ;)

Hmmmm... where to start?
Today woke up slightly late for school, slightly only.
Usual take bus to school, blah blah.
Get on bus 65 that time saw into the girl that Yuan Feng likes.
She smile at me, but I dao her :x
Partly because she took my favourite location to stand in the bus & I also not very sure if its her, scared wait call wrong ppl.
But later when lunch that time she joined us & told me about, I dam paiseh luhs.
Sorry ah Miss-I-Don't-Remember-Your-Name-But-I-Now-Typing-That-Time-Remember-Le- LIQING! Hahas!! Sorry ah, because I need to time to recover that you shock me by standing at my favourite spot, by the time realise I should say hi that time, I already dao you quite a few seconds le :x

Anyways! Long school day, until 4pm+ nothing out of the usual, just kept dozing off only despite my many efforts to keep myself awake. Yup! I did even pinch my thighs to keep myself awake. Ouch! Now swollen le >.<

Recently been watching "Hi My Sweetheart" (海派甜心) dam touching lor! Keep listening to the show's songs also, Rainie's 雨爱, 匿名的好友 & Show's 爱不单行. So nice luhs... fall in love with this show & those songs le ^^

Yes... I know alot of you finish watching le, keep asking me watch so long now then I finally watch... YOU ALL WHERE NOT HAPPY AH!! Hahas joking only luhs! :P :P
Must thank Yuan Feng send me Rainie's song then I decide to watch the show de XD

Recently also dunno why la, that day go out supper with Teng, Ken & Nel. Treat them the supper I 'PROMISE' to treat de. Wallet completely out of 'Yusofs' after that... -.-
Went to ECP the skater's park to slack after dropping Nel @ Clarke Quay there. Suddenly Teng & Ken, take an interest in my relationship thingy.
Because they find it strange why like no news from me, say like which girl which girl, then phone very quiet no message, even Nelson's phone also ring more often then me.
Out of the blue they suddenly mention her, stupid la they all. They know I like her very long le, but just never had a chance to be with her only. Aiya, they give me the suggestions all seem easy to them, ask them ownself do la, doubt they will dare lor.

Time seems to fly. A blink of an eye also got 6 years le. I like you since our secondary school days. After seeing you have a boyfriend, I decided maybe we're not fated, went to look for my fated one. Been through so many relationships, so many heartaches, ended up back here looking at you again.
I'm not afraid to confess, what I'm afraid is after confession. What if I get rejected? I don't want to make things awkward. Hao bu rong yi I can find the courage to talk to you as normal friends likedat, before I was always shy when talking to you, dunno wad to say, dunno how to say.
Furthermore you told me recently you don't want to think about relationship 1st, you want to concentrate on your exams so you can get into a poly of your choice.
So my dear buddies, not I have no courage to confess, but now isn't the time.
And perhaps my heart is tired of relationships le.
Ken that day I told you I don't want to believe in love le, you thought I just copy out from 海派甜心 de, but actually I did quite mean what I say.
Walk one step, see one step bah, I don't want to rush any relationships anymore.

Day 10,
I was so happy to see your message today during lunch!
I wasn't expecting any replies till friday but when you told me you use your last message to message me, I felt kind of touched.
That message cheered me up alittle, even though its about something bad that happen to you >.<
I hope by now your stomach pain is gone already & you are feeling alot better.
Don't stay up late tonight le, go rest early today since you didn't sleep last night.
Day 11 will begin in 2 hours 48 mins from the time I type this out.
Message incoming.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Day 8.

2010-02-28T07:12:00.002+08:00

I know I promised an update... but yeah heh heh... I dragged & dragged until no update :x
Alrights just a short one for a friend :)

Day 8,
Know more about you today, how similar our problems are. Eg. Family, etc.
357 days more, I can't wait :)
Little by little I'm knowing you more.

Start of day 9, I wonder what will I know about you today :)

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Sleepyhead!

2010-02-27T04:44:00.001+08:00

Another sleepy day! I shall blog when I wake up.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Sleepy.

2010-02-26T01:57:00.003+08:00

Like so long din update, now finally wan to update liao, too tired to update.

*yawn*

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

My heart is tired & dead...

2010-02-23T07:26:00.001+08:00

I'm living in a world where I have to hide myself behind a mask, in a suit... will I ever be able to express my feelings for anyone anymore?

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Project! Project! PROJECT!!

2010-02-21T04:55:00.006+08:00

First things first!!
To C.Y:
I read your blog, actually I read it that day you posted liao, just lazy to reply ;P Anyways its ok la, that day can't play I also have to wait till the 9th then can play with you, I this week also need to mug, do project, ready presentation, blah blah blah... all that busy crap, you know de la ;)
My exams finish on the 8th if I'm not wrong so after that when you free le then we meet up lor ;)

Long weekends, by right I should be enjoying my last not busy weekend. But because Entrepreneur Project 3 not finish, already past deadline le, Monday, die also must hand in! So can't enjoy at all.
Went with Ken to the gym... on the way-

MY TIRE BURST!! WTH!!

I was cycling happily after pumping our tires up from the petrol station only, crossing the highway that time- *BANG* gone case liao *sobs*
Didn't want to drag it all the way home so I just chain my bike to this bridge then decide to come collect it another day... had to jog while Ken cycle to the gym. TIRING LA!!!!
After gym accompany him go book his bike TP @ Ubi driving centre there, dinner at CP. Wanted to play badminton, but ownself eat too full, feeling lazy also then see CY no reply so bus home :x

Oh well! There goes another weekend wasted on project. Been doing project whole day, calculating & all that, now see numbers jiu scared liao. Not finished with my project but left very little to do, will finish it all when I wake up.
Have to chiong my profit-and-loss projection because I promised Seemiang I'd help her with it.
Dunno why suddenly very close with my classmates :S

Anyways, I promised people the favor I will do it so faster rushed it & send it to her liao, jiu one thing down. Her project group also no better then mine... but I would say still my project group is the most owning *wink* one-man show *wink*
That Thursday she was complaining to me about how her group members not taking things seriously, trying to just copy-paste information from the net & throw all the work to her.
Then that Thursday she stayed back with us (those who got make-up lessons because of debarment... -.-), just to finish some parts of the project she has no idea how to do. So stayed with her helped her as much as I can lor... But honestly la, when helping her I actually have no idea what to do, because I haven't done that part of the project yet :x
So I just freestyle, help her with whatever that come into my mind, but eh don't think I anyhow help her ok! I used proper logic and reasoning one hor, wan help jiu help properly I won't do things half-hearted-ly!

Then after she go home one of her group members Nat (also my debarment buddy) complained to me about how he regretted picking her group because she is such a nag, very easily agitated when even tho he give her his assigned work & all that...
I hear liao just no comments. Aiya, people group the thing I don't want comment so much, wait later people say I make trouble all that, don't want give them chance to say.

Hiya hack care la, my group is still the most owning one, don't want talk about it liao, other day then say feeling loso le...
Whole body dam ache la, faster recover so I can hit the gym again! Want to blog about another thing recently de, but I shall do so in my next post when I get my mind organised abit more... Hais.
Go sleep lo, wake up nothing to look forward to but project again! Dammit!

I hate the feeling of heartaches...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Blind...

2010-02-19T14:35:00.002+08:00

To be blind to the world around me, to not see the things that will hurt my heart, is a relieve...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

S.S.E.Y (Same.Shit.Every.Year)

2010-02-15T11:35:00.004+08:00

Updating.
First off. Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Valentines Day to everyone.
Should be particularly happy because its CNY again, but the mood isn't there this year. Partly I think its also because its Valentines Day bah.
Nothing really special to blog about... basically the same shit as every year.
Morning go my father's side grandmother's house, then after that go my mother's side grandmother house.
Oh yeah if I had noticed something different in this year's CNY it would be that this year is particularly hot. Even as I'm blogging here I'm also sweating... fucking global warming, if you wan come, kill us all, don't make us fucking sweat our backside off... basically sweating all the way in my Ah Ma's house.
Dam bored lor this yeah, seems like I'm driftiong apart from my cousins & relatives, dam bored & no topic to talk to them.
But thanks to CY & Sep for accompanying me message, otherwise I'll definately be bored until no hair.
This year's angpao is better then last year, less quantity but MORE quality.
Total up got 3 digits so I guess thats good bah.

"Best looking red packet of the year" award goes to:
From Auntie Angeline. ♥ the gloss.

(Yes, I know I took this photo under bad room lighting, so shut up ;P)

I recall I got a WTF angpao that has a print on it that looks like a hell note... even my mother agrees with me when I show her that. But eh... I can't find it anywhere so no photo of it. Sorry everyone.

I'm in a particularly foul mood... No need to ask why, reason is same as every year this time of the year. Wasn't in a good mood last night at all either. Dam emo for alot of reasons. I still remember last year I had you with me, accompanying me, it was the best...
I still have that other half of the pouch you gave me for V-Day, it still has that bear hanging on it... nothing you gave me looked different from before. The shirt, the belt, that box of hearts, that card & the book you always wrote in, they're all still here, only locked deep inside my cupboard. Even the ring, its still with me, it fits perfectly now... I wonder if you still have yours... most likely you threw it away, I hope you didn't.
Last year at least still have someone & something for V-Day... this year... oh well, forget it all...
Anyways I want apologise to 2 person who had to see me beat myself down. Sorry to you 2, had to let you see me like this. Really really sorry...

Not going out today bah, so most likely going to take the time to kill my brain cells & finish my Entrepreneur project 3...

I thought I had my heart locked away from me, how did it end up in your hands?

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Last min C.N.Y shopping!

2010-02-12T23:48:00.002+08:00

Normal friday today, no school!! Thats the best ^^
Sleep until about 10+, 11am likedat... fully awake around 12+
Help CY print her poly application thingy... hahas alot of personal info I saw le oh... now I know your home phone number!! ^^ Hahahs!
Meet her at CP to pass her the papers, dunno why when I saw her mother, she kind of scares me, so faster hand her the papers din chat much jiu left in haste le :x

After that meet Ken go down Bugis to buy my vest, bought socks also in Messy. Ken bought white shorts, I want buy also but then think think abit I need long pants more then shorts, so din buy. Dinner settle at CP KFC.

Kinda emo today despite finally buying the vest I wanted. For some reasons.
Forget it. Guess there is no point thinking about it bah, let it come naturally.
Totally no mood to continue blogging le. Maybe I'm just tired bah. Yeah... maybe.

I dunno why, but since know you till now. Everytime you going out, I would worry alot for you, exactly why I worry, I don't know bah. I thought I would be able to care less like I told myself to, but I can't. I hope I don't fall too deep, I don't ever want to be sad again.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

YAY!!!! Long weekends with C.N.Y to look forward to!

2010-02-11T16:45:00.004+08:00

It's the start of a long weekend for me!! 5 days no school woohoo!!
But ahhhh... Entrepreneur Project 3 not yet complete need to hand in next Thursday le, nevermind tomorrow I will finish it in one shot!

Today's lessons wasn't as boring as I thought it would be. Most of the credit has to go to someone *wink wink* she has made school more bearable for me :D
Thanks so much for accompanying me Ms. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ^^ (you know who you are ^^).
Caught up with Mr Moh's lesson today despite being late, been putting extra effort into my studies recently with exams around the corner. If you guys are lucky you might actually see me seriously mugging sometime next week XD

Choose my year 2 elective today, Marine Offshore. Hope I can get in, the elective sounds dam interesting lor, best of all... NO PROJECTS!! Only 400 hours of industrial attachment, on top of that I also have put in my name for attachment this March holidays, if I get it then my holidays got work lo ^^
But 1st I must be able to get into all this 1st. Need to double up & work hard this exams le, hope my name don't make it to the debarment list so that I can study for my exams with a peace of mind.

Gonna go shop for my vest tomorrow, wish me luck hope that vest I like don't get sold off >.<

Zilian!!

Something funny I came across on Facebook! Epic!

Slowly but surely. I'm falling for you...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

S.S.D.D (Same.Shit.Different.Day)

2010-02-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

Haiyo! Today Mr Moh's module no test ended up doing AUTOCAD assignment only...
Sians! I means... I studied for nothing!
Oh well take it as practise for exams bah.
Oh! Go do ETP PROJECT LO! By this Thursday submit then Chinese New Year free lo!

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Looking ahead, mosiac-ing you out whenever I spot you.

2010-02-07T18:47:00.005+08:00

Blogging again after missing for so long.
As you all may have noticed, I changed my blogskin & changed my tag box too.
So any previous message left in the previous one, I'm sorry for not replying.
I only remember Auntie Yin's de so here's your reply:

"Ps ah, that time wasn't in the mood to blog or come online. Just trying to avoid everyone possible. I got talk to you on MSN recently le ah. Hahas! Chat with you when I can :)"

That should suffice. I'll try be more active on my blog abit, because its getting colder & colder here... but think even if I active on my blog also seems useless.
So many read & run-ners these days. They don't even bother to tag, giving excuses of all sorts...
Anyways this will just be a short post, I have alot of things I want to say but I feel some of it best keep in my heart don't say anything yet bah. It's still too early... or I should just bury it & never speak of it anymore.
Entrepreneur Project 3 time, bye!

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Despair.

2010-01-22T17:03:00.001+08:00

Despair is my goal. My only goal.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

3rd Morning...

2010-01-20T06:32:00.003+08:00

3rd morning my mood got killed as soon as I woke up.
I don't want to know anything anymore. Please kill me or make me blind so I will never see things I don't wish to see...
I hate all of you...

~.Tags replies.~
♠miki: Ya... I got A... but pointless le...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Loneliness.

2010-01-19T07:24:00.005+08:00

My shadow is the only one who walks beside me.
Check my vital signs.
No, I'm still alive.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

So tired...

2010-01-18T15:21:00.004+08:00

New week(my weekends sucked bad except for a few things, so don't ask) of school... suppose to finish at five de but I early dismiss myself, because the section head say de not my fault. Ask me go cut hair before I can go for my afternoon lessons. Hell no... I already cut it last week le. Any shorter I won't allow! Can't fucking grow a new haircut if I have to keep cutting it every time I start growing hair.
Rather quit school then let her cut le.

Bad start for the week. Very moody, very emo, nearly cried if I was weaker, end up I did not. Sorry to disappoint those who wants to see me cry. Getting better at controlling my tear ducts I guess, this morning felt really very cold in my heart even though the sunshine so hot. Keep having chest pains which has nothing to do with heart failure but the familar pains of heartache...
Reason? I'm not going to say here, I don't want someone to feel guilty, even if that person felt guilty so what? That changes nothing, the world still revolves around the sun, the sun still sets in the west & the moon still shines every night...

I really feel very tired. Not physically exhausted... but mentally. Tired of everything... Today in class doing work that time I want to just put down my pen and stop writing le... just close my eyes and sleep forever. Don't have to think, don't have to try, don't have to worry. A blank mind, a peaceful sleep, no dreams to think about. Nothing.

Sometimes I wonder... why do I have a blog for? I write I post, people read people forget. To them is just a form of entertainment... but to me, its a place where I open my heart out to. But for what reason do I open my heart out for? People still misunderstand my intentions, misjudge me unfairly, worst of all misunderstand my feelings for them.
Someone once told me this: "Seems like the people you like, actually have feelings for you too, but they don't tell you only."
In case you readers were wondering. Ironic isn't it? As this came from a girl who liked me... & did not say anything to me till- nevermind...
So what if they liked me? They never made their feelings known to me until its gone then they say.
What is it so hard for them to put aside pride and make their feelings known?
Girl confess to boy very paiseh? What kind of thinking is that? Then boy confess to girl not paiseh mah?'
Beneath that so called ' elephant skin' you think we boys have, we not paiseh also?

"Relationship isn't everything." my gan-mummy always say that to me, but without it life is boring & dull...
My one weakness is that I tend to put too much effort into a relationship that has yet to begin, open up too much to that person till all the cards in my hand show out le. Left with nothing up my sleeve this lose everything.
Perhaps I should revert to my more introvert self that I was during primary school... that way I can never feel any heartaches anymore... only the cold of loneliness which I'm so used to.

Nevermind, back to my day... anyways the day didn't continue smoothly... while I was heartaching, Meiyun (the ex that cost me the most heartache both emotionally & financially...) just had to call me for some absurd reason... she wanted her friends number for reasons I have already forgotten. Hearing her voice again was painful... knowing that now she so faithful to her boyfriend but when with me she was one hell of a S_ _ _.
I wanted to help her, but I cannot forget the pain she put me through... In the end I do not forgive & I do not forget. I picked a random number on my phone list, a twist of fate I random into Fion's number. I remembered she wanted to answer Meiyun's call that time during our blading trip @ ECP to give her a good scolding for the way she treated me after hearing what i told her. I can only hope she touched into Fion's nerve then there will be one hell of a show to watch. Lol...

An sms... who could it be... ah... someone just woke up... this person also another one that takes away my mood. Stayed up waiting for to play, end up so late then msg me. Made me sleep only 2 hours, nevermind. Wake up le, wanted to play, brb me until MIA... sua...

I'm just a come-&-go friend/standby boyfriend to these people I guess... Or I think I'm their friend, I feel more like a playtoy... when you all need me only will then spam my blog cbox, my Facebook status, chat with me on msn, msg me, ask me accompany you all chat on phone or go out together all that & I really hate myself for being so soft hearted to do what you all want... Play finish le throw one side...
Of course... my feelings not important... I also used to it le... you all wan play jiu play... don't wait till the day no more chance to play le then complain...
Times like this I really need someone to just be here for me... not console me... not scold the people who made me moody but to give me the love I need, make me feel that I don't have to face all my troubles alone...
And by saying that I don't mean you people who read finish this post le then come concern about me...
I made this post is not to plea for care & concern... I don't need fake sympathy.

One thing is for sure, my heart stop beating... & it will never beat again...

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Blogging late night.

2010-01-15T03:14:00.003+08:00

Eh heh heh heh... I'm blogging late night again.
Simply means that I took too long of a nap during the evening >.<
Ahhh... missed a few days of 'Xiang Wo Ni De Shou' le! Dam sad >.<
Nothing much to blog, later today going school after school go gym then cut hair.
Thought of changing my hairstyle. Hmmm... but scared it will turn out ugly. Nevermind I try and see how it will turn out bah ;D
Tomorrow meeting my Valerie mummy for movie! Hahas so long din see her since her 21st birthday till now :O

~.Tags replies.~
♠wendy: Thanks for the tagged! Tyty! Wasn't really expecting an A but oh well =D
♠deadgal: Hahas, got chance ask you out when he's around so you can test whether he is really 'ben ben' ornot XD
♠Renee: I never use the word 'idiot' wor. And I also never say its who ;P

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Entrepreneur Project 2. A!!

2010-01-14T03:45:00.003+08:00

Eh. So... I got A for my project 2. It's actually an improvement!
I wasn't really expecting an A, I was expecting an A- or even B+
But oh well, that shows that hard work does pay off.
Have been trying to tell that to someone who worst still, seems to be say one thing do one thing, say can handle the stress so overconfidently until the whole year didn't put in any effort only waited till last minute then mug for exams like crazy, gave ownself so much stress & say don't want to care about other things other then studies which is an obvious lie (who could have guess what that person was thinking anyways). In the end worry so much about results until the truth sinked into that person but... that person in my opinion is still wandering around aimlessly up till today. Oh well I don't pity people who expects results without any effort. Sorry but its my Virgo's nature to reveal the harsh reality to you ;P

In case you're wondering I'm not talking about 'ben ben'(lols) but someone else who took my words for granted more then once. If you(reader), don't fit the above description then 99.9% of course I'm not talking about you! ;P

Oh well forget it, what others want to do is their choice, not for me to decide anyways. Wahahaha!
So eh. Yeah I blog very late today because I took too long of an afternoon nap earlier... Zzz...

Suddenly just feel like laughing! Cause I remembered your laughter when I say 'ben ben' to you XD
Eh think too much till I forget what I wan to write le...
Nevermind later come home remember le then blog again :D

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: Hahas! Thanks la! Thanks for play Soduku with me too! Now I know how play the game le, can play my phone de :D My class so few chinese then also not very gum with them also... except only 2 bah but 1 quit the course le... *sad* :'(
♠deadgal: Ok! Hope to hear from you soon ^^

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Really sians.

2010-01-12T22:00:00.003+08:00

Hais, school is boring, life is getting dull, mood is becoming moody.
Whats with me? Hais. Why I can an wei other people except for myself?

~.Tags replies.~
♠Piggie: Thanks. But your concern never seem to last.
♠Yin: I online but you not automatic. Must I talk to you then you will talk to me. ~.~ Hais, so sians school getting from bad to worst. From bored to plain dead boring...
♠deadgal: Thats good. Meet up soon ok?

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Old Dogs & dreams...

2010-01-11T01:23:00.006+08:00

It's update time again! Last night had supper at Jalan Kayu & watched Old Dogs with my buddies. Quite a funny show, lots of funny moments, if you need a laugh go watch it ^^

Reached home around 3am+ bath & all... then accidently fell asleep on my desk. Been having dreams of you lately, woke up suddenly. Was emo for awhile but fine after that.
Game till about 2pm in the afternoon, too tired fell asleep. While sleeping I could have sworn that Piggy called me, pick up & listen but then the line cut off... Must be my stupid phone. Hais. Then have another 2 more weird dreams which by now I can only remember abit of it... -.-
But anyways blur blur sleep until about 8pm+ woke up... Oh my gosh!
One whole Sunday wasted sleeping >.<

Hais, I wish I can accompany her, even offered to go find her, but she wanted to be alone. Before she message me tell me what happen that time I already had a rough idea whats happening.

Cutting this post short. Just received a very strange message from her. And she's alone. Oh crap... that bad feeling is around... this is bad. Gotta go!
Will update & reply tags in my next post when possible.

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Ah bored...

2010-01-08T23:24:00.003+08:00

School today was boring. Although learn new things. But doesn't seem interesting.
This air-con module is boring as hell but cannot slack... March 3rd exam le.
I blame Mr Tan. His voice got hypnotic effect one, hear liao can zzz...

Ah I today slightly emo... whats with me? I thought I told myself I won't put too much feelings for everything le, yet still it happened without me noticing... hais.
But I'm glad I still got people concern for me, thanks piggy & CY! :)
Very was tired today, just woken up not long from my 'afternoon nap'.

Hungry now... but no mood to cook. Was thinking of whipping up some deserts I have in mind, but in this mood, better don't cook... sweet things confirm become bitter. Sua!
Thinking about next week go out with...

~.Tags replies.~
♠miki: EH? LOLS! That line you say like heard in a song before. Sounds familar sia... all the songs nice meh?
♠xiaowei: So violent! >.< But must catch into me 1st then can beat mah ;P Ha. See you soon :)
♠Yin: Same same lor... school is always boring. But dunno why come back this term even more boring then before. School have never been the same sinced- tell you on MSN when have a chance bah :)

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Hmmm...

2010-01-06T23:30:00.004+08:00

Eh. Ha. Ha. Ha. Eh...
I missed school for 3 days in a row >.>
Todays lesson is not purposely skip de!
Completely accidental one, I thought lessons is during afternoon... but its not timetable change so I tio fucked :S
Tomorrow 8am lessons must go liao, but considering whether to go the class BBQ after that anot.
Hiya, maybe I won't go bah. Let's see how things go bah. Very likely not!
Wahahaha!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠miki: I got online, but I online that time you not online so you din see into me nor. Which song you talking about?
♠Yin: Hello! Wah you very long no come tag my blog le leh. Now ITE last sem for you le right?! Hows school?!

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

2010! Two Zero One Zero!

2010-01-01T18:42:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!
Hahas I just woke up only! 1st dream of 2010 made me sleep like a baby XD
What dream I have? Hahas! Don't tell you all leh!
For me to know for you all to find out :x
But on a serious note. Why is the dream about you?
I never thought I would dream of you... 1st time.
I guess 2010 is a new starts... anything can happen I guess.
But if so, I don't think I'm the guy for you.
You deserve better-
OH WELL! Its just a dream! Hahahahaha!
MISSON WAR TIME on CABALSEA!!
BYE!!
Happy 2010 everyone!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee: At least I got update leh... You leh your blog machiam like dead :x

.~♠♥♦♣~.
Joker

Year-End Post!!

2009-12-30T21:36:00.006+08:00

So now I'm copying all the retail stores. They have their year-end sales, I got year-end post! Wahahahaha!!
Ok never mind what I've done for the past 2 weeks without a single news on my blog.
Let me sum it up, I met a girl, we walked together, some 'things' happened along the way & now we're neither here nor there, although most of my heart is already gone after she broke my heart.

Forget it. Let's not talk about that now... Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, I intended to blog tomorrow de but then won't be at home(going to my family gathering then meeting my buddies in the late afternoon) & seeing that I have so much free time on my hands now, I might as well update XD

SO this year have been quite an eventful year. I was in 2 & a half relationship(the half relationship thing is with my piggy, because we never actually 'walk' together :S).
Relationship wise it has been a very eventful year for me. I met alot of girls this year, can almost say almost every type of girl also met le.
Much more comfortable talking with girls too le, say goodbye to the shy ahDeX lo!
BYE! BYE!
*kicks the shy ahDeX away*

The people I've met also alot, LAZY people, STUPID people, retarded people, CHILDISH(looks at Yuan Feng) people- ok la enough with the 'bad' people that I've met(joking only ah Yuan Feng).
But hey I've met a few awesome people too, 2 person I must named that helped me alot this year would be my dear gan-mummy & Fion! The support(& scoldings :x) you both have gave me this year really helped me through the times where I cannot see the light in life. So a very big thanks to the both of you!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
LOVE YOU BOTH! :D

And besides thanking those 2 I would also want to thank 3 idiots who have been with me for 8 coming 9 years le! Yup! Kenny, Nelson & Teng Hong! Without you 3, life would be dull as hell & not so much laughter(I still remember me, Nel & Ken cracking jokes @ the YCK police station XD).
So thanks to the 3 of you! For such fun, hilarious & eventful year whenever I'm out with you 3 ^^

Of course I'm not such an ungrateful person to forget my exs ;) To you girls I've nothing much to say about the heartaches you put me through, but... still without you girls I wouldn't have the courage to many things I did this year.
So thanks to you all :D For all the good times we have enjoyed, the love we, the laughter & tears we shed.
Without you all I would still be living with the 'dead' kind of thinking about relationships :)

I guessed I matured alot this year, or maybe not :S I don't really know either :x
But alot of my thinking has changed, well for the better or worst I won't know yet. But at least I have my 5 years ahead planned & have decided on my career :D
Yup, for those who have been following my Facebook would know by now, yup I've decided to join the SPF after my NS! You people are reading the blog of a future law enforcer XD
Although my physical fitness is still a problem... ALRIGHT! It's decided, the year 2010 will be fitness year! I will train up from PES B to PES A! This year I will concentrating more on my studies and work. Must get a job by the end of January.

This year I have alot to achieve & do, all of which are my top piority:
-Get both car & bike license.
-Up my PES from B to A(A whole hell of training awaits me! RAWR!).
-Maintain my GPA @ 3.5 or not let it drop below 3.
-Find a girl who can make this heart beat again.
-Have a wonderful 21st birthday!!

Ok la I think thats almost about all that I want to say- wait let me think.
Oh ya! If you all haven't watched Avatar, you should go watch it! It's an awesome movie, was dam engrossed in it when I watched it with Wendli. If she didn't hold my hand during the movie I would have almost forgetten that I was watching the movie with her :x It was that mesmerising... well at least for me :x

Hmmm... I think that wraps up all I want to say. A whole new year is upon us!
Lets hope 2010 will be a better year for me in everything!
Hahas so I'll finish off this post with my list of top most 'something' of 2009.

ahDeX proudly presents his...

Number 1s of 2009

Number 1 most hyped about game:

Assassins Creed II

Dual hidden blades! A hidden gun! More deadly assassination moves! A kickass main character, what more can you ask for? My favourite game of the year!

Number 1 song that pumps me up:

Supernova by Tetra-Fang

Afuredasu kanjou ga! Omg! This song never left any of my playlist! Especially great song to hear when gaming keeps you pumped, the energy from the song is just pure awesome! ♥ Seto Koji!!

Number 1 song that can turn on my tears tap:

一句话 by 卓文萱

This song just makes me cry, reminds me of- *sobs*
Truly deserve to be my number 1 sad song of 2009 *sobs*

Number 1 anticipated movie:

Kamen Rider × Kamen Rider Double & Decade: Movie War 2010

Up till now I've yet to see the movie even thought it was already out for 2 weeks in Japan, waiting for someone to upload it.
The ending of Kamen Rider Decade, the starting story of Double! How can I miss it!
Someone faster upload it on Youtube, even if its the raw version I don't care! I wanna watch it! RAWR!

Number 1 most favourite pieces of clothing:

Hoodies & Vest

6 words.
I.Just.Love.Hoodies.&.Vests.
FYI: The 1st picture is not actually a hoodie its a urban armor. For what? Urban warfare lor :x But I am so fucking going to buy it if I can find in SG XD

Number 1 most addicted drink:

Green Tea

Hot or chilled, I just can't get enough of this drink. Its my drug now, I just so addicted to it! Especially Heaven & Earth's green tea!

Number 1 watch series on youtube:

Kamen Rider

Kuuga, Agito, Ryuki, Faiz, Blade, Hibiki, Kabuto, Den-O, Kiva, Decade & now... Double(although Double is not featured in this video :S)!
Anyways, I'm so dam addicted to this series, I never liked Kamen Rider when I was young, thought they were stupid, but after watch a few series & a few episodes in, I realise its more than just a kiddy show, the actors & actresses are both stunning & the many places of Japan featured in the show- OMG! I just can't wait to go Japan!

Number 1 most hated to the core person:

Kheo Shing Hoong!!

ARGH!! RAWR!! Just the mere mention of this stupid indivdual is enough to make my blood boil, my anger rise! His is the only person I will not forgive & forget, even though statistics shows that everyone is more willing to forgive a fat person, I REFUSE!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠deadgal: It was quite obvious hor? >.< Weii... up till now you still haven't give me a date yet >.<
♠miki: You have your phone liao!! Photo photo!!
♠liyin: Hahahahahahas, but the Boomer really looks like her lor! At first I still not sure then ask my buddies to look, then they also agree with me :x ROFL!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Stay-home Tuesday!!

2009-12-15T23:36:00.004+08:00

Woke up quite late today.
Fell asleep in my sis's room after chatting with her last night :O
Woke up blur blur de, dunno where I am.
Called her when I woke up, so happy to hear her voice, but she was still sleeping.
Her tired voice sounds so cute lor! ♥ it!
Was suppose to finish up all of Entrepreneur project 2 BY today but dam lazy la me... do abit, slack, do abit, slack alot, until now...
Lau pei bought a new bar of Cabury chocolates(Fruits & Nuts) for me & I still left 3/4 bottle full of green tea, which is enough to power me to finish this damn project... but... >.<
Keep thinking of Thursday do what when meet her, seriously cannot wait for Thursday to come lor!!
Whole body is still aching after working out @ the gym + swimming yesterday >.<
But still I have to workout later, must stay fit! Cannot slack!
Wonder what to do tomorrow...
Aiya tomorrow come then think, I go play Cabalsea now! New patch is in & server is up!

The feelings you gave me are so unique, one that no other girls had ever gave me, I love you♥

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday♥

2009-12-14T23:10:00.008+08:00

So I haven't been posting for a few days le, time to update.
Otherwise I will keep getting bugged to update... seriously this is my blog you know I update as and when I want -.-

Went out with Lijun on Friday, met her @ SK MRT then train-ed down to Somerset, walk walk in 313 Somerset then walk around somemore before having lunch @ Cineleisure's KFC.
Afterwards no where to go, she suggested going to Airport walk walk & so we did.
Bus-ed there, alighted & walk walk around T3 & T1, all the while chatting & laughing, well actually Lijun did most of the laughing, she cracks up easily XD
Afterwards, 27-ed back to SK. We went up to Rivervale Mall's NTUC to buy TWIGGIES! (Yup! That delicious snack one of the Zombieland's character have been hunting the entire show XD) & carrot juice, sent her home after that jiu bus 11 home, myself.

Friday night something happened that made me very glad I did what I needed to do :)
Curious what happened? Sorry I won't say so much here, over the next few days when I post it le, you all jiu know le lor! ;P

Saturday was... L4D2 day!! Met up with Ken & Co. Went to have dinner @ PS's KFC. Wanted to watch Storm Warriors II(Feng Yun II), but then Ken watch le & told us it was really crappy & not worth watch, so we went to Parklane play lan instead!
L4D2-ed the entire evening till about 8pm+, ahahas! But the maps we played not as fun as the other time we at E2Max play de & the graphics also not so good(because the lan shop's com abit lousy IMO)
Train-ed home afterwards & met up around 1am for supper, Nel drove us to Geylang there to have frog porridge then went to Kallang Leisure park after for bowling but it was closed. Nel also suay la, he accidently had his father's car's front bumper scratched >.<
But he should be fine, the other time he also had it scratched then refuse to admit its his fault still manage to get away with it ;P
After that ton @ Kenny's house, watched Jackass 2.0 on Funshion, 4 big guys squeeze one bed abit strange, someone still left blood stains on Ken's table & bed, till this day the mystery remains unsolved...

Sunday was stay home sunday, but it was a particularly nice day because of... Hahas, same thing, it will be explained over the next few days ;D

Monday went cycling to the gym & swimming with Ken, met up with him & Teng(to lend him games for his NEW com). After rejecting him for insisting on going up my house to take mouse pad(Razor Mouse Pad, he really dam cheapo la... hear free only, eye big big -.-), we 2(Me & Ken), went to pump our bicycle tires before heading to SK's gym.
The swimming pool was close, forget that SK swimming pool is closed on Monday's so decided after gym then cycle to Hougang there swim...
I FINALLY GAINED ABIT OF WEIGHT!! *happy*
54kg le!! Hahas!! But that idiot win me, he 55kg -.-
But he was sort of a pussy yesterday, see the weights he set when training :S
PUSSY LA YOU!! AHAHAHAHAS!
Went to Hougang to swim after that, wanted to sun tan but failed... wasn't sunny enough for us to get a tan, still have cold wind blowing @ us >.<
Afterwards went to Compass Point because Ken wanted to check something regarding motherboards, because his com chui liao.
I got injured by my own bicyle lock, bleed quite abit >..<
Later at night, went out for supper @ Jalan Kayu with Ken & Co.
Ken 1st time, steal car keys to drive us out for supper!!
So touched until wan cry le!!
*sobs* *sobs*
Nah, I'm just fucking around! ;P But still... Thanks alot bro!!
After, drove to the park opposite SK stadium there chit chat under the drizzling rain.
Because Ken took his father's car without permission so he had to clean off the rain before he can return home, helped him be a free bagala wipe the rain drops off Xiao Hong for him, I guess thats sort of a thanks for driving us out for supper bah.
He should be honored because I charged my lau pei $5 for washing his taxi the other time & this time I did it for free for him XD

Basically thats all for the past few days!
So I'll end it with some random photos.

EVIDENCE:
A grade standerd project ok... soloed by the one & only ahDeX.
You all can solo an A grade project come out mah?
Although its kind of stupid getting an A- just because I missed out only a few things in my content page -.-

Looking at my bro & sis sleeping makes me smile... they look like 2 dumplings... Hahahahahahahas!! Blankets wrapped until so tight ;P

Nice view from the Skytrain of Changi Airport's control tower.

A choir singing Christmas Carols @ the Grand Cathay. Hearing them sing, gets me into the holiday mood.

During supper, waiting to be served our frog porridge! Teng! Dun siam!
Note: PS! Forget to take photo of the food!

@ Kallang Leisure Park... GIANT CHRISTMAS TREE MADE OF BALLOONS!! Can you count how many balloons are there?

How can I resist not taking a zilian photo?

Ken looks good in that hoodie, not sucking up to you ah, but really looks good in it.
Should buy more hoodies to wear ;D

Chit-chatting under the cover of the road bridge @ SK park.

Look at those red markings on the parking lot, its made my Ken's lau pei as a guideline for parking Xiao Hong(Ken's Suzuki Swift) because the lot is very close to the wall. Don't believe that it will work? Take a look at the next photo.

TA DA!! A perfectly parked Xiao Hong!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: I think you thinking the girl should be the one I mentioned. Yup! I was there, but no see into you also, hahas! Maybe our timing not right bah.
♠Jun: Hey I'm not skinny ok! Hahas! It's slim!! ;x
♠deadgal: Hahas, coincidently meet into very hard la. Will meet up with you, if you will give me a date when you want to meet lor ;)

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Ok I'm bored...

2009-12-11T04:12:00.009+08:00

So I'm updating.
Past few days have been rather un-eventful... unless... you consider...
Falling sick, feeling like shit, having to complete project with a headache, heading down to police station to record statement, blah, blah, blah, blah as very eventful then... oh well last few days have been eventful lor.

Ok Monday... the usual. Got struck down with monday blues, missed the morning lesson, went for afternoon lesson instead. Expecting to get some submits (project work done from 2 very obvious people I've been mentioning so far).
But of course the sad sad truth is... NOBODY HANDED IN ANYTHING!
Ok Yuan Feng got wedding dinner to attend later hand in to me, thats excusable.
But the other fucking moron, kept quiet the whole time.
I already anticipated this anyway, but I kept quiet & still ask him if there's anything he don't know he can ask me, but of course the fuck just say: "Will de, will de." Words... but no action.
Lesson was just plain stupid, nothing really learnt, finished one accountable assignment for Mr Moh, then basically after that was just messing around.

Some random drawings on the Autocad program by Yuan Feng...
Guess it really suits him... childish 22 year old ;P (Although I have to admit, the mouse is pretty cute.)

So anyway, went home waited whole night for both of them to send me their work... Yuan Feng kept his word & did send me his after he reached him, good job YF! You put the trust back into me for you liao! From his work can see he put in effort, hahas!
Give yourself a pat on the back, buddy! You deserve this holiday :)
Where else, I waited & waited at my computer table for someone until I Zzz...

The following morning, woke up by a message, from who? Take a guess...
Of course it had to be that... STUPID FUCKING RETARDED USELESS BRAINLESS HAIRLESS FREE RIDER!! Here's what he wrote:
(Bolded sections are the part that serious PISSED ME OFF!)

"Sry dexter i still dun kn hw to do the 4p i yesterday go home got think and search web but still dun have ideas on 4p you can help me do i will treat you eat:)"

WTF!! I told him exactly what he needs to do last Tuesday!! Giving him almost an entire week to do a fucking easy section of the project (when I forward the msg Auntie Yin, she tho say its chicken feet). I even told him, if he does not understand anything he can ask me, or if he find that approaching me face to face very intimidating, can online (hide behind your fucking moniter) ask me.

And what happen? Only YF made the effort to ask me how to do.
Honestly I'm not looking down on anyone, not even when I found out that I'm grouped with a person that have a stupidly low GPA (1.4 how is it even possible?) for the fucking 1st semester & the very 1st liar that I met in my Higher Nitec course.
He lied to me he knows alot about Autocad, made me so happy to have him sit next to me only to end up me teaching him more then he teach me, & getting him irritating me often.

I only ask for him to do that easy section leh...
I SOLOED the whole fucking project 1, that being my 1st time doing an business course-like project leh. I had no fucking clue as to what I need to do, where I need to look. I completed based on purely my own research, common sense & asking around for any amount of assistance anyone can give (those whom I approached for help, you all should know yourself bah).

I'm proud to say at least I made an effort leh, I asked him why he online during weekend no ask me how to do, he told me he weekend never online. BULLSHIT! That Saturday I reached home around 1am+, bathe hao le, online awhile, say that he was fucking online & I stick around to see if he would ask me anything anot, but until 3+ still nothing, then he offline.

And just look at the second part I highlighted bold, what does he think I am? Some small child that can easily be pacified with sweets or food? Do you think I cannot afford to even pay for my own meal? FUCK YOU! I fucking give a shit about your meal, I just want you to fucking hand in your work to me, even in POINT FORM which I told you can do as long as you hand in to me the main point can le.

OMG! I seriously don't know how to deal with him, eventually I wanted to hand in the project this week, @ the last week of school, but because of him, I need to spend this sunday & maybe alittle of next week to finish up project 2.

I'm fucking done with him I'm not going to include him for my third project, I decided to write a note in project 2 for Mr Foo to see, explaining how I cannot work with this free rider anymore. I don't want to share my grades with someone who does nothing & not even make an effort to do ANYTHING.

Many apologises. I'm sorry that you all have to read this post with like a swear word in almost every sentence, but if I didn't get that all out I would seriously explode from inside.

Got back Entrepreneur Project 1, got an A but its a low A, A-. Because my content page didn't do the format Mr Foo wanted (I forgot actually, hey I soloed an entire project, give me a break its just a dam content page...). But it was the only project in class that got an A, feel very dam proud when Mr Foo pointed out the 3 of us (he should have just pointed me out, because I complained to him beforehand that I soloed the entire project le).
Although he did look at me only when he asked me how I did it & whether I did get outside help, of course I was glad to explain, he seems impressed ;)
That was perhaps one of the few lights that I saw this week bah, that made me happy.

The later on that day, I went to Yio Chu Kang police station to record my statement, was called in the morning by I/O Edmund to go down & record statement.
1stly I want thank Lijun for accompanying me down to YCK & waiting for me while I record my statement. Thank you! And very ps to have made you waited so long for me, thanks for the patience :)

Was feeling feverish when I reached home, but no choice had to get started on the project 2 immediately while studying for ACDD test the next day.

Wednesday rushed down to school for ACDD test, reached school then found out...
NO TEST!! WTH!? Made me mug for nothing lor! Dammit! Dam pissed. But hack care la, no test also good, only pissed that I had studied for nothing :(
Planned to pong last day of school, since YF not going also (I don't want to be stuck in the same class with Stupid (yes, its your new official name, Shing Hoong, you're called Stupid to me).

Reached home finally get some free time to rest, read your blog & found out that by accident because of my busy day & me turning in early because I was sick that I made you so worried for me the day before >.< Felt dam guilty about it lor >.<
So so sorry to you, made you so worried me le, should have at least messaged you once to let you know I'm fine, it was too late also when I saw your MSN message, you already offline le.
Sorry sorry, I won't do that again le, won't let you worried for me. But thanks for the concern you gave me :)

Today (Thursday, I know this post ended up on Friday >.>), went with Nel & Ken to YCK police station again. The 3 of us inside the station machiam breathe into laughing gas, keep saying stupid things made each other laugh, I think even the police & people inside waiting also think we seow liao, keep laughing non-stop.
But seriously la, it just seems like everything we saw today also dam funny lor, laugh until ta bu lei tahan.

Had lunch @ AMK Hub, PEPPER LUNCH! Ken's treat! :D After that 136-ed home, I pop by NTUC restock on my chocolate & green tea, saw Lijun working there, purposely go her counter to pay ;P
Sorry ah, today I didn't take any photos so I going to end with zilian photos instead.
Saturday going movies + E2MAX L4D2!! Can't wait!! Wohoo!!

Hahs! Too much Assassins Creed made me so in love with hoodies!
But why do I feel like a male red riding hood :x

If asked who's the moonlight of my life every night, my answer would be...

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: 4B class de, that fat girl with that extremely disgustingly loud laughter... :x You remember mah? I got time, I find her Friendster or Facebook profile then link it to you.
♠Renee;DD: Eh, ok.

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King

Weekends.

2009-12-07T04:16:00.007+08:00

Alright update le, so for those who kept bugging me, you are getting what you want le, happy? -.-

Looked out of the window on Thursday night mah? The moon was really bright that night, dam beautiful la, very long no see the moon shine so bright le, stand under it machiam stand under a spotlight likedat :x
But the 1st thing that came into my mind when I saw it was... Why is there a Bejeweled orb in the sky, where's the other 2 more orbs so I can explode it?
Jialat! Play too much Bejeweled le, now over addicted :x

So for those who have noticed my Facebook status update on Friday would know that Friday I've been to plenty of places.
Met with Ken about 9.30am, bus down to YCK, to accompany him settle his 'thing'.
Afterwards, I suggested we go NYP to buy drink & of course feed my eyes ice cream lols, joking only la, I wanted to see how NYP is never been there before.
In my opinion, it kind of reminds me of TTS hospital :S
Was disturbing each other saying maybe will see into familiar people *wink wink*
In the end really bump into someone, Wendy (my ex) :x

Afterwards it begin to rain so actually wanted to walk to AMK hub there walk walk de, but Ken suggested go the newly open 313 Somerset shopping mall walk walk, so train down to Somerset.

Figures, whenever there's a Q in Singapore, its safe to assume that some freebies or promotions in that particular area, here we see typical Singaporeans in a Q to get into UNIQLO(apparently some of the items they have are going really cheap, I saw a pair of skinnys going for only $19+ (usually cost around $50-$60+).
Was really tempted to go in & buy but... not a fan of Q-ing up that long ;P

So afterwards we decide to just walk to random location, walking & chatting something caught my attention outside of Taka...

IT'S A HUGE LV BAG!!

Ok so fastforward... after that its bus 11(walk la!) to Plaza Sing, bus down to Suntec(pop by Kbox hoping to see someone, but instead just saw a random chiobu at the counter, oh well), bus to Tampines for lunch(LJS!), then bus back to Punggol...

Basically all those long bus trip the 2 of us was... Zzz... all the way :{

Random photos taken that day!

OMG! Found it in a random toy store in Plaza Sing.
Kamen Rider Den-O(Liner Form) & Kamen Rider Zeronos(Zero Form) action figure!
But didn't buy, I'm too old for toys anyway :x

Don't the markings on the road looks like smiley faces to you?

So yeah was really tired on Friday + I slept late so...

Woke up around 3pm by a message from Ken asking if want to go out anot, steady as always... I agreed lor, crawled out of bed... bath & went out le.
Meet with Ken & Nel @ Punggol MRT, train down to Somerset to meet Teng & his gf.
Walk around 313 for awhile then went to have dinner @ Centre Point's Mac (MCSPICY!)
After that went to buy tickets for movie, went up E2Max to play...

Omg! Dam fun la, really enjoyed playing it & we had a new codename for the female Boomer, its... JESSABELL!!
In case you all wondering who is Jessabell, she is this girl that studied in the same secondary school as us & she has this really annoying laughter that makes us dislike her & also she really resembles the female Boomer.
I won't include her photo for a side by side comparison because they would be really bad & I'll get karma for it so I will just throw in a picture of a female Boomer 7 you all use your imagination ok?
PS: From what we remembered how she looks like. She really resembles the female Boomer. I'm not kidding ;x

RAWR!

Not all of us played L4D2, Teng & his gf couldn't join us because his movie (Ninja Assassin)is starting soon.
So we went on ahead & played till 9pm+ roughly 15mins before our movie starts...

Overall not a bad horror movie. Scary? Yes. Better then Paranormal Activity? No.
7/10 for this horror flick, some part of it had me looking away from the screen (hey, if you were me at that moment you will be scared too ok ;P).
Won't spoil the story for you all, so go watch it yourself.
Hmmm... lead actress shares the same name as someone...

After movie bus 11(walk la!! Zzz...) to Doby Gaunt's bus stop waited till 12:30am then 6N-ed home. Nel suggested supper but me & Ken wasn't hungry so supper cancelled.
But in the end I waited till 4am+ ordered 2x Sausage Mcmuffin with Egg, was feeling hungry after showering :x
Sunday was stay home Sunday-
It's getting late, continue tomorrow.

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♠Renee;DD: Lame tag -.- You get a U grade for it, tag better the next time...
♠miki: No means no. Can one la, you already say someone did it liao so why can't you?
♠Yin: That time we working part-time together mah, then pay quite good, OT only jiu earn dao siao so our wallets during that time all fat fat one ;)
♠Jun: Hey, hi! Thanks for the tag ;D

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King

Later.

2009-12-05T15:16:00.005+08:00

Going out with buddies, update later.
Stop MSN pming/SMSing/cbox tagging for updates, it getting to become a pain in the neck.
It's my blog, I update as & when I like.
Not for all of you to decide for me.

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King

I'm feel...

2009-12-03T05:00:00.003+08:00

I dunno what kind of feeling I have now...
Saying words to hurt someone you love, is really very difficult alot more then I thought...

Why can't I just be cold-hearted to you?
Why do I feel so guilty, why do I keep re-reading that conversation instead of just closing it & be done with it?
Why can't I let go, even after telling myself a thousand times, a million times to let go...

Have I truly lost all common sense & allow myself to fall in love for some whom I've only spoken to, but never met before?
To me, you have become just that girl who exist only in my computer & a voice I can only hear in my phone. A person I can never touch no matter how hard I reach out & stretch my hand towards...

Why stranger? Have you stolen my heart & left me to die.
How can you live happily knowing that you have hurt me so badly...
You have made my heart so cold... stranger...

You read, but like everyone else, you never understand, worst still you pretend to understand.

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King

Bloody hell...

2009-12-02T20:52:00.003+08:00

Didn't go school today because of one stupid shit that happen in the morning, I seriously don't want to talk about it so don't ask me what happened & whatnot.
I only let 1 person know about this matter & if you are not that one person who knew about it, then don't bother talking to me about this matter just read my Facebook status, it will give you a clue.
I swear one of these days I'll walk out of this house & never come back again.
Miss diao my ACDD test today, dam dulan, msged See Miang ask her help me ask Mr Tan if can take the test another time, luckily can.
Which gives me more days to study for the test, hopefully I score well for it.
Mugged the whole night last night but only manage to study a little bit, ETTV is giving me a headache & so is facade questions...
Already started on my Entrepreneur project, the section I needed to do doesn't seem so easy as I thought it would, need to go find those online research done by others de, tomorrow is thursday liao, I hope those 2 noobs did what they need to do & not disappoint me.
I gave them the easiest sections to do, but the gut feeling of going to be heavily disappointed is lingering & I trust my feelings more then I trust them...

Hais... times like these I really wish I had someone close to support me, to help me through this stressful period. Unfortunately. it seems those people who I want care & support from are never around when I need them, only appearing when they need me. Which makes me wonder about certain things... like if girls my age really suits me or not, because I always seem to receive the right kind of support I want from girls 6 years younger then me...

Oh well, but at least now I know I do have people who care about me. Want to thank my friend Zhao Rong for texting me last night & today, all the while accompanying me & giving me the care, support when I needed it the most(although you fell asleep halfway through, don't blame you, it was really getting very late), I'm glad to have know her. Glad that you got through your injection today, hahas, told you its really nothing to be scared about de ;)

Don't ask me why Piggy, but I'm very sure we are gone from each other's heart. Gone are the days where our problems matters to each other.

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♠miki: Sorry, its ALL mine! ;P
♠Yin: Aiya, can de that time me & Teng they all I think we every week went to watch show for 1 month+ hahas :x

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King

WTH!

2009-12-01T21:25:00.003+08:00

Sians arh! Just found out today that Entrepreneur project 2's deadline is next week tuesday, kns.
Then tomorrow got ACDD phase test, next week got Mr. Moh's phase test also... but hack care la, the week after next jiu holidays le.
Lucky I look at what I need to do for Entrepreneur project 2, not so much things as the 1st one that I need to do. Assigned work to those 2 idiots, hopefully they don't disappoint, but I got a gut feeling I will be SEVERELY disappointed. I might end up soloing this project again... hais.

Feeling kind of down right now...
No! I don't need anyone to comfort, lend a listening ear, try cheer me up or do anything to make me feel better.
I know I'm falling in love again with someone else, but I have no intention to confess to her because of the fear that after confessing, it will end up like me & Piggy, even up till this moment I still ponder over my actions & how we would be if I had not confess to you...
YOU made my heart become so cold & hard, that these heart warming feelings of falling in love has become more then just an annoyance to me.
Should I let you know? Or bury these feelings deep down & let them fade? I think I should choose the 2nd option...

*sign*

Zilian photos!

有一句話... 再也都聽不到 :(

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♠G is grace: Oh! LOL! I thought who it is ahahahas :x
♠deadgal: You're welcome ^^ Then when feeling better & free le wan meet up jiu let me know lo, ok? XD
♠Yin: Ya I know going to be showing liao ah, but got movie marathon meh? Got another 2 more movies coming soon not bad also, Zombieland & Avatar, lets go watch all 3 shows!! XD

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King

I'm...

2009-11-30T23:18:00.003+08:00

Lazy as hell to do a proper post, but I will do my best.
Ok today, start of week. As always shit as hell, can't even wake up, last night spent the whole night downloading Call of Duty 2: Modern Warfare 2, end up cannot play, fucking waste of my time.
End up morning cannot wake up(slept @ 5am), kena morning call by Piggy but still can't summon the energy to fully awake. Dunno why, but hearing your voice didn't make me want to wake up & go school, no motivation at all.
If next time you in the rush don't call me le, because I listen liao felt like you don't want to talk at all & since likedat I won't care for what you have to say(or at least thats what I felt at that time).

Wanted to go for afternoon de lesson, but think of the long hours in that room, totally made me sian diao... I got a gut feeling warning letter 3 is not far away...
Think my GPA 3.5 maybe also will fly away liao. Dunno la, don't feel like studying le, just don't have the motivation anymore.
Before would still think of OUR future & wanted to chiong to study hard so that I can give you a future to look forward to, but now I feel that since I also no longer in Piggy's heart le, whats the point in being so hardworking for-
ARGH!! Whatever la!

And I thought this year's Christmas & New Year would be different, end up still unchanged...

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Ha, goes to show that you always turn my music player off, I had that song inside the list for a very long time already.
♠deadgal: Lols, will update de la, I'm not abandoning this blog, its my "chu qi tong" :x You went to see doctor for? You not feeling well? Hope you get well soon.
♠shanniie: Life is... can't really say fine... ok I guess. Definately not better then yours *sigh*
♠Yin: Wah, lady boss liao, aizai hor? So that movie marathon thingy you mentioned, whats it about?

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King

Finally! Update!

2009-11-30T02:16:00.012+08:00

Ah! Update le! Stop bugging me to update! Zzz...
Ok la, very very sorry for not updating for awhile already... eh... almost 1 week+ I suppose? Whatever la, now got update le so be grateful! ;P

Ok la I don't want to bore you all with my ah gong's stories so I'll just summarise everything from the latest to the oldest.

29th November afternoon till now...
Went to Sitex 3rd day because someone wanted to see see, end up didn't even step in... AT ALL! Because she didn't like too crowdy place -.-
Short while outside jiu go home le, rest of the day... nothing much to say.
Reach home le, slacked, slacked & slacked. Don't feel like getting started on Entrepreneur Project 2 so soon, bloody hell I just finished the 1st one, now must stress myself to do the second one again?
Don't care ah, I want more participation from those 2 idiots for this project or else...

28th November till 29th morning...
Went out with Ken, Teng & Nel, finally got to sit his XIAO HONG(See picture below: Red Suzuki Swift) liao!! (Actually I already ride in it on last week Sunday ;P)

Went to Sitex on the 2nd day, Teng wanted to buy a new PC so went around to walk walk look for the brand he wanted(Nel advised him to just buy the parts of PC & assemble it himself, but Teng preferred the security of buying an entire set), as for me... well my eyes was busy the whole time... too many attractive promoters le :x
Saw my school de senior working as Canon promoter, looked at him, looked quite familar but don't recognise him at all, even after he tell me he is my senior... oh well I just pretended I remember, must be friendly mah :x

After that we went to Illuma @ Bugis Street there to wake, funny incident happened.
Almost reaching there when we saw that the ERP was on! Ken wanted to save ERP money ($1.50 for car) so siam it & took a detour because the sign showed "5:30pm - 5:35pm" & when we was approaching it was 5:33pm so decided drive around for 2 mins then come back.
But when we come back, the ERP didn't turn off! Worst still it extended the time till 7:55pm!! The price also increased become $2!! LMAO!! Ken was in the 3rd lane cannot turn right to avoid liao so bo pian cross it & pay $2, but then later on he miss the road turning into Illuma's carpark so the $2 he paid for the ERP wasted!!
Ended up park at one of the nearest carpark(60 cents parking only all the way till the next morning, WTH?) then walk over.

Nothing much in Illuma lor, went up the top to see the biggest lan shop that Nel mention ok la, just big & new lor... not so the computers made of gold or what, but the coms there have L4D2.

One of the exhibits at the ground floor.
Everyone, meet Warchief Thrall from World of Warcraft! (And Doctor Doom from Fantastic Four in the back :x)

PS:I know... his breast "lao hong", don't ask me why, ask the people who put up the exhibits :x

After that we went to eat steamboat, went to one of the restaurants that Ken recommand. Hmmmm... not bad la, it's an eat-all-you-can steamboat so we order a whole load of food- dam thinking of the plates of beef makes my tummy call now *drools*

Poor prawn, kena suicide-ed by the clumsy "auntie" waitress when she help top up our soup, lucky I changed seat with Ken, because his pants tio the soup :x Thanks ah bro! Help me block "xue guang zhi zai" :x

This is the "AFTER" photo of our dinner that night... forgetten to take "BEFORE" one...

Nel staring at something he wants in the pot, whats Teng looking at? CHIO BU???!!!

Stupid Ken, trying act cool when he knows I taking his photo -.-

Afterwards Xiao Hong-ed back to Sengkang/Punggol to prepare to ton @ Nel's house.
Watched 5 mins of SAW 6 on Nel's computer, after that all of us too shaken to continue watching already...
Wei not say we no guts ok, go watch the 1st 5 mins of SAW 6 then come tell me whether you dare watch the rest of the show ornot lor & tell you all 1st, the 1st 5 mins is the part before the title "SAW 6" come out we already watch until bite nails, cover eyes & non-stop facepalm liao >.<
Ended up watched the Korean Tsunami movie while waiting for Eugene to come.
Teng knocked out 1st(Weak la, still wear the Division 9 Infantry singlet... act one only -.-), we (me, Ken, Nel & Eugene) played dai-di while drinking(Vodka + Coke/Mug) & while munching on Nel's combat rations... joking la we ate his house biscuits because feeling hungry liao then lazy go down supper cos dam tired.
Afterwards went home, I made a detour because I heard some had more drinks for me(eh, I pro liao ok, this didn't even felt drunk after drink so many cups, alcohol tolerance level up!!).
Played Bejewelled while drinking, Piggy called, chatted with her awhile, not much after that, cooked abit(cooking while tipsy, pro right?) & then went home le...

Photos taken @ Nel's house:
Thanks Teng we so wanted to see your armpit hair when you woke up from your KO ;P

Teng wake up liao, Eugene KO! WEAKLINGS!

Clockwise: Eugene, Ken, Teng, ME!! (I'm taking the photo la) & Nel.

27th November...
Actually suppose to go cycling with Val mummy but she sick... so cancelled, wanted go gym, then Teng suggested go Sitex but for some reason which I forgetten end up he no go, only me & Ken.
Zhun zhun Ken say his parents go Batam for some family matters, car key left at home so can drive Xiao Hong, so asked Rock Lee(Ken's Nitec classmate, Teck Hou) along also.
Walked around Sitex to see if can find the laptop DVD drive that Ken wanted, but don't have, so decided to go town have dinner(@ Aijisen. Yay! Miso Char Siew Ramen! I miss you so much! *yum*) & watch movie after.
Watched...

Ok la, not a bad movie, dam graphical(M18.) but not as bad as SAW 6(R21!)!!! Overall if you like action movies &... RAIN(Yes... that Korean singer named after a weather condition)!! Then you will love this movie alot, I personally think the lead actress can be replaced with a prettier one, won't spoil it for anyone who is interested in watching so go watch it yourself & you will know.

Also, found out something that day... that Orchard Central's multi story carpark... is the most FUCK MS carpark ever, 6 floors of pure roller coaster-ing!!
Kenny parked there, so I had to endure 6 floors of going round & round & round up, then 6 floors of going round & round & round DOWN! Zzz... after that had quite a headache.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday... SKIPPED!!!!
PS: Ps la, really nothing interesting happened at all what you all wan me to say? Most interesting thing is collect my new set of contact lenses only & thats all liao...

22th November... Sunday!!
Yup! This is the day that I 1st sat in Kenny's SSK Swift! Went with Teng to Suntec for the food fair, but end up reach Suntec le, went up only saw the cosplay event going on & realise the bloody food fair was @ EXPO...
Anyways... photos.

Me inside the car, bo liao so just take photo for fun... was driving to Pasir Ris when I snap this.

Teng munching on a muffin, we had our lunch @ Kenny Roger's. This one is take specially for Auntie Yin one, you wanted to see Teng botak is how right? Now let you see liao lor ;P

Taken later on @ Expo's Food Fair.
OMFG!! Auntie Yin!! You open booth @ Expo Food Fair?! I found your booth, but no see you here :x

Ok enough fucking around, photos taken at the cosplay event!

It's Halloween Sora from Kingdom Hearts II!

Kakashi Sensei!!

O.O Setsuna(Gundam OO/Exia's pilot from Gundam 00)

Mr. Bushido! Also from Gundam OO

This one I dunno from which anime one... this photo is Ken snap de, so I think he snap because its a chio bu bah :x Btw... nice legs! o.o

Wow! This guy really put alot of effort in this costume, those wings are HUGE!

Later on taken, when we went to Pasir Ris park, our last stop before Teng had to change into his uniform & prepare book in liao.
Oh meet into Aaron & Issac @ the White Sands, what a coincidence!

If I remembered correct, after that went to have supper with Ken's poly classmates @ Simpang Bedok, had chicken chop... omg I'm feeling very hungry liao... jialat jialat >.<

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY VAL MUMMY!! 22nd November!!

Left to right: Shing Hoong, Me(ahDeX!), Valerie Mummy(Xiao Wei), Yuan Feng & Kenny
Went to Val mummy's chalet with Ken, Nel, Teng, Yuan Feng & Shing Hong(Alan came later on) to her chalet to celebrate her 21st birthday, we're the 1st to arrive so gave her birthday present bought we went to buy the day before(Hope you like it, we honestly had no idea what to get you >.<).
Sorry ah mummy, wanted to stay overnight de, but learned of something dam shocking the day before, so totally no mood to stay overnight, ended up went to Parklane there to play lan because Teng was forced to play DoTA with his army friends.

Anyways, just want to take this opportunity(although abit late now, but whatever)want to wish my Val mummy a Happy 21st Birthday!! Wish that you will stay pretty forever :)

Afterwards, Eugene drove us home after LAN-ing @ Parklane. Remembered one thing from that day... Eugene paid $7 just to use the toilet, because he accidently drove into the car wash when entered the patrol station! LMAO!! XD & that he's a dam safety 1st driver... TPE/CTE expressway, his car speed maintained at 80... -.-'''

21st November
Nothing much, went to gym. Afterwards meet up with Kenny, heard the shocking news! :O
Then meet up with Yuan Feng @ Bugis to buy Xiao Wei's birthday present, had dinner at Bugis Street KFC, afterwards bus home.
Saw into Micheal Shoo, but I don't think she recognise me... just Kenny oh well I know the reason why *sly smile @ Ken's direction* hehes.
Strangest thing is although we took the same bus, she later got off & took the next bus 80 behind ours... we saw her in it when he alight to switch to 62.

My brand new jacket & bag, guess how much both cost each?
You'll be shocked when I tell you ;)

Ok end this LOOOOONNNNNG post with me pretending to be an Assassin like the guy from Assassins Creed I, a rather poor attempt at imitating him...
Photo of me & the character below to referance.

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♠deadgal: PS! That day MSN no reply you, I was sleeping like a pig, MSN left zhu, finally updated le! :)
♠Yin: Si Auntie! You try stay up late the next time got such meteorites event again & see if got ornot lor ;P
♠G: Eh? Who are you?
♠Renee ;DD: I wasn't really angry that day, no need to apologise de actually :)
♠Piggy.R: No more such stupid tags from you again, I told you the day before already.

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King

Tired...

2009-11-23T05:33:00.002+08:00

I'm very tired now, update tomorrow after school.

Thanks for making me wait.

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King

No mood to blog.

2009-11-22T05:11:00.002+08:00

Hey, just doing a short one, very short post + replying tags thats all.
Busy week seems to be almost over, I hope this upcoming week would be less busy.
I miss the times when I can shake leg at home, relax drink my favourite green tea & enjoy the silence of the night.

Your jokes never fail to steal a smile from me :)

Stop looking at someone who will never come back you Dexter, learn to look forward, you idiot! Hahas! You're really an idiot Dexter :x

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♠Zhao Rong: Heyys! Thanks for linking & tagging, do drop by to read often :)
♠deadgal: Ehs? Ok ok, don't appear offline can le, very hard to know if you got online MSN ornot :x
♠shanniie ♥: Heyys! Thanks for the tag :) Don't worry I'll be fine. Hmmmm... did you receive my msg? Sorry for the late reply last night >.<

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King

Sadness... over lost loves.

2009-11-19T23:46:00.005+08:00

Finally today handed in my Entrepreneur project le, hear Mr Foo say we're the 1st group among all the classes he is taking to hand in our project, feel happy about that :D
Although past few days I was very angry & frustrated over my 2 group members for not contributing to the project making me do 99% of the work while they can shake leg & get the credit for.
But in the end I didn't blow up on them, I decided to give them one more chance to prove themselves in the next project.
I certainly hope that they won't disappoint me, otherwise they are sure to see the unforgiving, no mercy & heartless side of me.

Yesterday was really a shitty day for me. Arrived at school late, was told by Mrs Wee going to receive second warning letter soon -.-
Oh well... at least PE got cancelled, tried to rush my way home because looked like going to rain.
As soon as my bus reached Sengkang only jiu started raining dam heavily, stepped out of the bus into big puddle of water... -.- Got my pants & shoes was soaked >.<
Had to dash to the nearest block, really regreted not bringing a bag(I was carrying my books and papers strapped together with a book strap) all my books & papers were soaked T.T Had to reprint my entire Entrepreneur project because all the ink was smudged & the paper looks worst then a toilet paper :(

Today also raining heavily, I missed morning lessons & just came for Entrepreneur, luckily when I was about to leave house my lau pei returned him home, so asked him lompang me to school, lost my Pilot Rexgrip(blue) in his car tho >.<

During Entrepreneur lesson, had case study to do and then the roof leaked water -.-
I guess that normal seeing that my school the building also quite old liao.

Drip dao all my papers wet, heng don't need to keep the question paper, return back to Mr. Foo.
On the way home also got drenched again... I think god is making fun of me, want make all my books wet... these 2 days have been drying books. In fact all my new books have been made wet within these 2 days...

Earlier she finally online after so long of MIA. Chatted with her & finally apologised to her for what I have said to her before, she said she has changed but deep down I know her best, its impossible for a leopard to change its spots, but that's not important & no longer my problem if she doesn't change, it would be her new boyfriend's.
All I wanted was to apologise & that was my only purpose, so I kept my thoughts to myself & tried to make that awkward conversation as light hearted as possible.
She offline-d pretty quickly, later found out from her blog was because she was waiting to call her boyfriend after work.
Been a long time since anyone called me to concern for... how I wish- oh well... nevermind.

2 months & 9 days has passed since we broke up, by right I should have already gotten over her, but my curious heart wanted to know how she is & so I went to read her blog, which now I really regretted doing.
I should be happy for her & shouldn't feel this way. I really hate this feeling. Recently I have already felt this same awful feeling whenever I see piggy &- nevermind I don't want to talk about it :(

Why do the girls I love always end up in the arms of another?
And I'm left alone with nothing but sadness & loneliness to accompany me :*(
Chatted with Fion & Wun Ying about it, they told me almost the same thing :\
Makes me wonder if they're long lost sisters or what de ;P
Lucky thing Auntie Yin's blog recently got joke, went to read one of them to get a laugh & relieve abit of tension.

Oh well, made 2 friends today, chatting with them made me forget about my sadness momentarily, which is a good thing ;D
I need to wake up my idea, DEXTER AH DEXTER! Stop thinking about people who only makes you so moody all the time!! You need to mix around more with the bunch that cheers you up & keep you happy!!
Suan le suan le, forget about all this!
Gym tomorrow & going Bugis to buy mummy's present.

有一句話, 再也都聽不到. 那些過往, 只好放在心上.

~.Tags replies.~
♠deadgal: Hmmmm, no leh you more busy, I messaged you a couple of times, you also no reply me. Did you change your number?
♠Yin: No leh, I waited with my friend till 5:30 am neither of us manage to see even a single meteorite :(

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King

FINALLY!

2009-11-18T03:17:00.002+08:00

I'm done with my Entrepreneur project!!
Now all that is check if I left anything out then print it out, buy a file tomorrow, punch holes, file it up then my nightmare is FINALLY over!

I think I really need to request from teacher a change of group, I don't think I can survive soloing another project, I really will die.
Tomorrow go school, I got alot of scores to settle with Yuan Fong & Shing Hoong.
Everytime I see the work that they have handed in to me, I seriously want to flare up.

ARGH! Seriously angry now! I need food!
Supper supper more supper! Eh? Now wan 4am le >.< Breakfast liao >.<
MSN so quiet only Andrew & Fion alive.
Chatting with Fion about how angry I am now, going to seriously blow up.

Gonna stay up till 5am, Fion says there will be meteor shower. I really wish I can see one, never seen a meteor shower in my life before *excited*

And I hope the meteors will take away the pain in my heart everytime I see how good you treat him...

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

我知道...

2009-11-17T22:50:00.002+08:00

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

Knowing you felt sour, made me smile a little inside.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee;DD: Si piggy -.-

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

MONDAYYYYY

2009-11-16T21:08:00.002+08:00

BLUES!

Yeah... I didn't go school today, was suppose to go see doctor in the morning but I dragged it to the afternoon because the weather was so nice to sleep.
Slept till around noon, woke up, prepared to go see doctor almost ready to step out of the house le then realise I completely no cough, no flu, no fever.
Went to check temperature, normal -.-
Then realise my body also at full strength.
Nabei... another day attendance gone likedat
Late evening started coughing again, but is mild cough so don't think I need to see the doctor over it bah, tomorrow going back to school.
Sucks day today, ate pathetic cup noodles for lunch, lucky ah bu got cook dinner today!! And on the menu is...
PASTA!!
But how I wished she had added sausages in it instead of crabstick because as I was eating it I suddenly remembered that Meiyun loves crabsticks... nevermind.
So only ate one plate, gonna be hungry tonight, but nevermind there's always supper ^^
Gonna try finish at least that ETTV page 59 homework tonight, miss today's lesson means I'm behind again, dammit stupid body of my weak & useless -.-

How many more times do I need to tell you that "I love you." to make you understand that I don't say those words if I don't mean it & that I wish you can have more faith in my love.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: Ya lor, next time I go drinking I should seperate my battery from my phone ;P

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Late update.

2009-11-15T15:08:00.001+08:00

I know... its monday morning... a start of new week le...
Where have I been for the past few days... what i have been doing... all...

NO UPDATE!!

Yes I can hear abit of complaints, no doubt from the usual people who don't update their blog as well >.>

Ok 1st things 1st.
ahDeX here, want to apologise to the top 5 people on my sms quicklist & call list for Saturday- well Sunday, morning disruptions -.-
I was slightly drunk & should never be allowed near any mobile devices when that happens because the result would be:
200+ sms
1 hour+ calls
So if you happen to be one of the 5 people, the next section is for you 5.

**APOLOGY START**

I'm very sorry for whatever I've text or call. Please don't take it heart & just forget everything that I've said. I'm so very sorry from the very bottom of my heart.

SORRY!! Please forgive me for my stupidity!!

**APOLOGY END**

Ok moving on...
Hmmmm... Thursday was sick, skipped school much to the dismay of my dear ah bu, but I was really starting to fall sick so I think she also let it pass.

Friday, was really sick le, my whole body the energy less then 50% so I didn't went to gym, rested at home, sleeping most of the day.

Saturday, woke up with a heavy head... felt no better at all but forced myself up because I'm not going to let this sickness take my weekend away. RAWR!
Worst of all... MY CONTACT LENS TEAR!! :(
Had to wear my specs till I get a replacement :*(
Was going to watch 2012 with Kenny asked Nel along but last min changed mind because Nel watched 2012 le then since we very long no go out together so went play pool, had Double Chocolate Ice Blend Coffee(yes, I know I'm sick but heck care anyway) at Coffee Bean Paragon...
At there we saw something that hurt our eyes really bad & we still crack jokes about it, if only Teng Hong was there probaly have more funny comments added in XD
Saw someone that look like Miss Winnie(my NITEC class advisor) but on closer look, only side profile looks like, front view not.

We had dinner @ The Manhatten Fish Market @ PS, while waiting to be seated Weiting Mei saw me & called me, surprised to see her because thought she was working :S
This is the 1st of many times(Ken himself said de) that Kenny treat us expensive dinner so of course...
Must take photo!

This is what me & Kenny had, sorry no photo of Nel's de, forgot take :x

I didn't eat much of it because was feeling terribly unwell, when to the toilet to try vomit mid-dinner. But came back that time appetite improve le.
Abit regret not eating alot now, because I'm hungry!!

After that actually wanted go Ken house ton but then he say Amanda insist want to drink, so me & Nel accompany him go lor(but mainly because he's picking the tab for drinks too :x)
Waited outside PS(Nel wanted to smoke) then went down Doby Gaunt MRT's arcade to play while waiting for Amanda to come.
Went to Parklane there to drink, went to the same pub as that time went with Xiao Wei to drink de.

Me & Nel didn't want to drink hard liquor so we ordered a Calsberg tower shared, while Amanda had vodka dunno mix with what. Poor Kenny, only drank alittle because I'm sure he knows that someone is going to get drunk & he needs to be sober.

Well at least now I know it doesn't take much to knock Amanda out, that girl is scary when she's drunk. The way she looks at you when she's drunk... its like you owe her money, killed her entire family, everything is your fault that kind of look.
At 1st I didn't know she drunk so when she ask me drink I drink, then she tipped my cup... I ended up with a wet crotch & beer on my clothes, not happy... at all.
Later on when I tried to help Kenny restrain her, she mistaken me for her boyfriend, some guy call Ye Jun.
Cool at least I know her boyfriend's name & SO DOES THE REST OF THE PUB!!!! *angry*
Anyways she snatched my specs, which I had a hard time prying off her fingers(that girl got quite a Kungfu grip) before hugging my lower body.
Which felt nice for a couple of seconds... UNTIL her fingernails dug deep into my thighs!! >.<
Wasn't the 1st time time she hugged me that night, later on I got hugged again apparently still being mistaken as her boyfriend which is funny because she can recognise Kenny but not me & Nel(which she mistaken the both of us to be her boyfriend -.-) which I feel kind of bad for Kenny.

But I had to admit at one point, I stopped resisting. Because it felt really good to be hugged by a girl lovingly(thats when she was screaming less & less violent).
I know what you all think, but I just can't help it.
It has been so many months since I had a girl hug me that way. I was really starting to feel at ease for awhile & I can at that time my feelings were really going to the wrong place until I notice she trying to kiss me that made me woke up my idea.
And for your information she is really attractive but I could never kiss a girl I don't have feelings for even in a situation likedat where my feelings were misplaced.

Neither me nor Nelson was spared from her drunk madness that night.
We got snacks thrown at us, hair pulled, specs nearly crushed, I nearly choked to death when she pulled my tie >.<
Worst was when she had a glass of water in her hands(which that idiot Kenny suppose to wake her up with) the look she gave me was scary as hell, I was so afraid she will throw it in my face I was all ready to take cover until Ken removed it from her hand >.<

After getting out of range of her "Kungfu hug", me & Nel faster tried to finish whatever drink is left so we can get out of the pub, while ignoring Amanda letting her scream all she wants, while watching poor Ken trying to restrain her, but we know he fit don't need our help so we didnt lift a finger XD
And thanks Nel I know my alcohol tolerance has increase le XD

BUT! This is the part where I made a mistake, I was feeling thristy & slightly tispy already, so I took a big jug of what I thought was ice lemon tea & drink finished it.
Only to remember slightly abit after I finished it... that it was Amanda's VODKA >.<
Luckily the kick only started to come after we left le & I got off NR6, I wasn't able to walk straight all the way home, amazed that I can even open my house gate & door. After that the things 5 people should know la hor... :x
Somewhere inbetween someone gave me a glass of hot water which I drink a few slips before using it wash up, that woke me up enough to take a bathe & finally sleep.

Sunday afternoon, woke up throat feeling as if got a bee stuck inside keep on stinging me likedat >.<
Whole body still not feeling well but at least most of my strength is back, don't feel too lethargic le later today will most likely go polyclinic see doctor bah(ya I not rich, so have to see polyclinic doctors, don't have the privileage of seeing private doctors >.>).
Haven't finish this week's schoolwork yet, its gonna start piling up liao if I don't clear them. This week is project's deadline.
Then will be 1 week or 2 before the next I think, can't remember.
Breath of fresh air at least, seeing that I'm one manning a 3 man project -.-
Interesting week this week will be. Hopefully this week, my mood will improve also & also some places in certain things will improve also.
So I'll end this post with...

ZILLIAN PHOTOS!!

Looking at that donkey always reminds me not only of you, but also that, if you had something stolen from you, you will never get it back again.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: Thanks for asking, but don't think you can help bah.
♠deadgal: When got chance bah then go out lor, dunno when you will be free also. Thanks anyway :)
♠Renee;DD: Lazy for past few days, you no update keep ask me update -.-
♠wunying♥: Thanks for the dropping by ^^ Hope to see you around more often :)

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

My feelings are...

2009-11-12T01:15:00.005+08:00

I'm feeling left, right, up & down now.
I am going through alot right now.
Words cannot describe how I feel now.
I feel no sadness emotion in me, its like the feeling has been killed off.
It's a good thing.
Tomorrow... I dunno what to do, I dunno how I'm gonna handle the situation.

Will be meeting CY early tomorrow morn, to "hold her hand" to Simei ITE ;P
Gonna go late on purpose because I hate that stupid 'Lisa', seriously because of her I feel like dropping my course, but I won't ;P Probaly get dropped out of that dumb compeitition sooner or later.
I don't care, I was never the kind of person who wanted fame or glory. I'm fine with taking the backseat.

Nothing much to blog, lets see what I can squeeze out.
Oh yeah went to BCA Academy today, basically just like introducing us to the college, giving us one of the options in case we can't get into Poly or want to opt out for a course that will have a guranteed job position after graduation.

Met up with the guys and waiting @ Braddell MRT's mac for Nat to come fetch us.
Poor Nat, kept complaining his car heavy no thanks to the 4 of us inside weighing it down >.<
Anyway reached there late, but no matter had a tour around the school find out more about the courses they offer, guranteed job position of graduation caught my attention but then I decided against it because its not my passion & I don't want to be stuck with a job that I have to drag myself to work just for a living.
Words can only do so much so let the photos do the talking.
I'm going to warn you, some photos are going to scandal-ological!

ME!! Feels like I'm not in Singapore because of the bamboo background.

Left to right: Me, Alan & Yuan Feng

I LOOK FAT!!
Left to right: Me, Yuan Feng, Alan & Nat

A wheelchair thingy thingy... I dunno whats it called la, don't ask me!

I feel like laughing at this picture, not because of Yuan Feng but because of... *silent* :x
Karma! Karma! Better not say :x

Don't these red pillars give the Jap kind of feel?

OK!!

WARNING R21 CONTENT AHEAD!
**R21 ZONE**
LOOK AWAY NOW, DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU ALL!

SCANDAL!! Yuan Feng blowjobs for Nat!! OMG!!

Another obscene picture from Yuan Feng.

**R21 ZONE END**

These colored pillars, you make music by playing em.

Some random pictures I have taken this week so far.

Lazy studies caught on cam!! (Seemiang & Yuan Feng)

Lazy Yuan Feng!! Sleepyface!!

Had dinner @ J8 with Yuan Feng, Nat & Shing Hoong at KFC, Nat offered to drive me to Boon Keng MRT, but I declined, I'm fine travelling alone home today >.>

Have something on my chest burdening me heavily, tomorrow I dunno how to cope...
Who can help me?
*sigh*
WAKE UP DEXTER!!
DEAL WITH THIS PROBLEM YOURSELF!!
ARGH!!
STRESS AH!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
I want to go shout aeroplanes right now!!
I want to throw myself into the sea & let it wash away all my problems!!
Zzz... have to finish some of my work by this weekend.
Saturday & Sunday will be crazily busy.
Bed is calling me, but not before the usual workout.

I don't want to remember you, but I can't forget you either.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: Long whiney update, enjoy :)
♠miki: Your welcome :)

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Good morning...

2009-11-10T07:14:00.003+08:00

Ps ah... my "good morning" no strength de.
Suppose to blog yesterday but... I FELL ASLEEP!!
So anyway... yesterday school was zzz...
Too many maths questions squeezing my brain dry >.<
Heard something really weird yesterday, but I won't talk about it(Yes, yes I don't intend to spread that matter about, you think I'm that kind of person? -.-)
*sealed lips*

Yesterday... I chatted with another Virgo!!
Hahas, I think she's my life the 3rd Virgo I know.
Chatted on MSN for a few hours lor, very interesting girl!
I would have mistaken her for my long lost twin if she wasn't 2 years younger.
Our personality, past & likes very scarily similar.
Chat as if we knew each other for a long time liao, wow very long no have such relaxing chat where I have to stress my brain on what to say ;D
Made my day from gloomy(no thanks to Mr Moh -.-) to happy^^
Glad I decide to come online chat then play game, otherwise I wouldnt have met her^^
Thank you very much Jiaxin!!

Argh! I'm still at home blogging, think I'm going to miss the 1st hour of lesson, oh well its Autocad, very easy to catch up as long as I dont slack ;P
Mrs Wee is going to have a fit if she know I'm going to come late :S
I WAN GROW BACK MY LONG HAIRSTYLE!!
Alright... CIAO!

Looking to the future without you there anymore.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Lazy.

2009-11-09T00:12:00.004+08:00

Been lazy to blog recently. Alright I promise I will update tomorrow.
Just been eating lots of supper lately hope I will gain some weight >.<
Nevermind this Wednesday go gym will know le :D
Abbs also coming out liao, good sign :D
Safe to say 2 or 3 more weeks I will have my solid abbs le!
Jiayou! (to myself!)
Ok sleep time, tomorrow- actually later on, school!!
New week!! This week will be a good week!!
RAWR!!
Why I suddenly so positive? Because chatting with someone today has made me laugh & smile, I have to say its been a long time since I actually laugh & smile & really mean it le ;)
Thanks Emeline ;P

I will allow you to linger awhile more in my memory but I will let time wash you away from it, the same way I fade from your heart.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

I made a promise to myself.

2009-11-07T21:38:00.001+08:00

I saw you yesterday, but I didn't want to approach you because of a promise I made to myself, to break a promise to myself is unbearable...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Don't look back Dexter.

2009-11-06T03:22:00.002+08:00

Letting go is my way of saying "I love you."

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Jialat!

2009-11-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

Jialat la! JIALAT!
I tomorrow seriously lonely le, nobody want accompany me go out, can't find anyone to go out with either.
Tomorrow go gym also alone... sad la!!
HAIS!! STRESSED!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠miki: *speechless* Thanks...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Dream, missed school & loneliness...

2009-11-05T15:35:00.004+08:00

I dreamt of Meiyun last night.
Strange I know, of all the person I had to dream its her.
Still can remember the dream clearly, in it dream I gave piggyback her to whenever she want to go, miss the times when I piggyback her...
Such a nice dream, wished I never had to wake up from it, a phone call interupted that dream >.<
Was really sad when I woke up, sat on my bed for almost an hour thinking of her, wonder how she is now, is she happy anot.
Really hope she is, that way I won't have to worry so much for her, although I know that I still will worry >.>
Christmas is comming soon & I have a promise to keep, I'm already searching for her christmas present, hope I find it & hope she will like it.

ANYWAY...

I miss school again... T.T
Jia Ying!! Your phone call not power enough... very weak, room for improvement... ALOT!
Mrs Wee called earlier the usual "I've not seen you much this whole semester." I seriously fear for my attendance >.<
Tomorrow I alone go gym le, Kenny can't go, must be go out with Amanda, PSK...
Very lonely tomorrow, someone accompany me!!!!

Oh shit, tonight must do project again... fan ah!!!!
15 days till deadline!!!! *cries*

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

5th day... @ HOME!! Going crazy...

2009-11-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

Ah... I miss school again today.
2 hours lesson but I didn't go...
Anyways so bored, I tomorrow die die also will go school, cause if I stay at home at longer I will die, die from what? Alot of things la, list out liao you will fall asleep reading.
Workout before sleep, nothing much I have to say here le.
Bye!

It seems that you intend to keep me waiting. But how much longer do I have to wait for you?

~.Tags replies.~
♠deadgal: I recovering le, thanks :) But my day doesnt seem to improve like my health :(
♠miki: -.- Stop pinching me la, wait I pinch you back then you know.
♠wendy: Oh icic. Hahas, eh... thanks :S

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Late night thoughts.

2009-11-04T02:18:00.004+08:00

"Love is giving someone the power to hurt you, but trusting that person not to."

That was what I said to a girl I was chatting with who had a similar relationship problem as me earlier.

Well I envy her, at least she had 1 good relationship, compared to mine... yeah... tons of crappy...-
Nevermind! Just did as much as I can for my Entrepreneur project, actually I'm stuck, there's a few things I can't do. I thought I can just skip to the back do the hard ones 1st then move back to easy ones, but I realise that section 3 requires alot of data from section 2 which is incomplete no thanks to 2 person I can name -.-

So since I can't do anything at the moment & I've just taken my medication which means I will fall asleep very shortly I might as well take this times to say a few... things yeah things :S

I dunno what is wrong with me honestly. Why can't my resolve be strong, why do I always have a soft spot easily exploited?
I had really wish to wipe you off my memories, to never hold any false hopes that I have a place in your heart anymore. But I can't & it's tearing me up.
No matter how I try to resist, I would just keep looking your blog, your Facebook's profile & his, sometimes even click on the link unconsciously, just to see how are you doing?

Why did I do that for? I gave it a thought & the answer I could up is this, because I wanted to see you both happily together. Together lovingly & all that, maybe post some pictures of you both together smiling away, hugging close to each other, write loving messages to each other's tagbox or Facebook's wall.
That way when I see such things I can reassuringly tell myself to give up completely.
Because she has found her love & I shouldn't intrude further. This way it will reduce the pain I got from my heartaches.
But then fate is cruel, there wasn't a single thing I expected to see!
Instead I found things that continue to feed me hope, messages sent by you that continue to mislead my feelings, kind words instead of cruel ones that fed me more false hopes.
Words like: "Things change, but memories don't."
And you refuse to remove that donkey from your MSN picture.
I want to stop believing that you still have something for me, you would ask me not to think too much, but I have tired to & failed terribly.
I don't want to get hurt again, that is why I'm trying so hard to wall up my heart but you keep breaking it down, whether unintentionally or not.

I'm not sad or emo, rather I'm confused emotionally. I have been through this before & I did not like it.
Before there was a girl that made me like this too, up till today I can say I still kept that feelings for her during then somewhere in my heart although it was a few years back already.
Up till today I dare not confess to her again, although she never directly reject me I knew from back then she had someone else in her heart, there is no room for me.
So I rather bury that feelings deep down & let things be as it is, I don't want to scare her away by suddenly confessing again, that girl reads my blog often but I don't want to say names, otherwise I doubt she will read my blog again, right?

Some of you may think that I seem like a flirt, having feelings for so many girls in my heart. Let me tell you all something you may or may not know.
I like to think myself as a person, whose feeling I have to a specific girl is like a flame that never burns out.
If somehow you capture my heart, that flame will burn very strongly for you, impossible to put out unless you put it out through force, which is to say do something to break my heart very bad.
But as long as you can make that flame burning strongly, its safe to say you have my 100% devotion.

GOSH! I said too much already, this kind of thing is for you all to find out not for me to say... Zzz... Say too much liao now must zip up! :x
But then what I just say are all true, whether you all want to believe or not is up to you la.

Medicine is starting to take effect liao, see things blur blur le, eyes also slowly closing, not bad leh this medicine very power, next time I got sleepless nights I confirm will take one to knock myself out.
Good night everyone!!

Good night... piggy :)
I hope I can see your message tomorrow... I hope... :)

~.Tags replies.~
♠miki: I got no flesh to let you pinch >.< Ok la, I gave you a proper tag liao, go see your blog ;P

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Tuesday.

2009-11-03T20:23:00.003+08:00

Not much day... 2nd day MC at home.
Woke up around 1, was coughing very badly so took medicine without food.
Btw, the earlier post the song is 知道 by 郭靜.
It should be in my playlist, you all will be able to hear it soon.
Whole day slack slack didn't manage to do a single bit of project, the medicine made me very sleepy can't concentrate.
I really need to force myself awake liao, I can't afford to sleep everytime I take my medicine with deadline drawing closer & closer.

Finally paid Valerie mummy for last friday drinking bill le, when to transfer the money to her account earlier.
I have a thought in my mind regarding my gan-mummy, I'm not going to write it out here in case she reads my blog. Don't worry, the thought I had about her is far from romantic, in fact I feel slightly angry thinking about it, so I'm gonna calm down & stop thinking.

Later on need to do my project le, tonight I will finish the whole of section 3 & then all that is left is section 2 & some parts of 1, which I have to wait for Yuan Fong & Shing Hoong to give me their input. Otherwise I will just write only my name on the front page & hand in, because seems like everything I tank.

I got my coffee, my favourite doughnuts & my sad sad songs, its going to be a long night tonight.
RAWR!! Wish me luck!!
Ciao!

Wake up Dexter!! Stop thinking of her!! Do you seriously want to change or is your resolve that weak? Are you a man or a pussy? Think about it!!

~.Tags replies.~
♠Yin: I just joking with the spam la. Wah you pro, everytime wan offline, next second jiu offline liao, no give response time :S
So now I know le, every post I make must make you say something so you will tag me :D Baka auntie! Baka! Baka! Baka! Hahahas!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

我想知道...

2009-11-03T17:04:00.001+08:00

她讓你憔悴許多
她讓你不知所措
她一舉一動你不停的對我說

我微笑傾聽你說
我卻越聽越心痛
怎麼你說的不是我

她比我多了什麼
讓你願意耐心等候

我想知道她讓你痴心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做得和她沒有不同
但是我卻不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我總換不了你的心動

你讓我憔悴很多
你讓我不知所措
你一舉一動我的心被牽著走

她不經意的走過
你就把我給冷落
嫉妒把我給吞沒

她比我多了什麼
讓你願意耐心等候

我想知道她讓你痴心是什麼
我想知道她讓你瘋狂為什麼
我知道做得和她沒有不同
但是我卻不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪裡比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什麼不同
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我總換不了你的心動

我知道了她那裡比我好更多
在你心中我永遠不可能會讓你心動
我知道我比她付出的還多
可是我
在你心中沒有她多

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

So tired.

2009-11-03T05:26:00.003+08:00

Just finished a couple more sections of my Entrepreneur project.
Assigned stuff for Yuan Fong & Shing Hoong to do, hope I can get it from them on the assigned dates I set for them.
1 week 5 days till deadline, no time to slack.
Wake up that time have to one shot chiong the final part then all that is left is re-arrange all the info to make it look neat, add pictures/graphics to make it not look boring & all the stuff that those 2 are assigned to do, finally edit any spelling/grammer, last minute changes before I can print them out, once print out no more room for editing le because will file them before its ready to be handed in.
I'll will finish this project by friday, so I can relax for a couple of weeks before the next project!
Going to push myself to the limits!!

Jiayo-
*faints*

I'm so tired now & still sick, feverish & all that crap, but I have to wait awhile more then can go to sleep.
I have to wake my siblings make sure they don't oversleep & late for school.
Don't even have the energy to prepare breakfast for them >.<
No choice, who ask me to pop out 1st, I've a responsibilty for being 1st to 'pop' out.

Argh!!
So dam tired!!
Faster!! Faster!! Faster 6am!!
So I can wake them up, then go to sleep T.T
Hais T.T

I had so much things on my mind while doing my project, but I don't have the energy to type them out now, will have to bear with me till I'm rested.

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♠Yin: Baka!! Took you long enough to get here! Why take so long to tag me? Next time I'll spam you until you tag me immediately ;P Much appreciated tag tho :)

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King

Sick.

2009-11-02T19:39:00.003+08:00

Feeling so sick, Entrepreneur prject not finished yet.
Went to polyclinic earlier, was raining quite heavy when I got out.
Don't worry I not stupid to walk in the heavy rain when I'm already sick, I wore my hoodie.
Gotten 2 days MC, but I don't think will be using the time to rest, best use the time it to do my Entrepreneur project.
Deadline is like 2 more weeks? Very close liao.
This weak must finish the 2nd part & be halfway through the 3rd part le.
Going to do abit of it now.

How many more heartaches do I have to go through, to realise that love does not exist?.

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♠deadgal: Thanks :) I'm losing faith in love but I will try.
♠miki: I will try not to :)

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Broken Resolve.

2009-11-01T11:37:00.002+08:00

Why did you...?
Morning everyone. I'm not feeling happy now & really shouldn't be like this.

Why did you have to message me apologising? I suppose you have read my blog then.
Then why did you, knowing I already resolved not to intrude with your life, say things that makes yourself the sinner?
I don't want you to put the blame on yourself, I don't want you to be upset, I don't want anyone around me upset anymore.
Don't blame yourself for being a bad friend, I didn't think that you are.

I told you didn't I? In one sided relationships, the one that put in the most love is just playing with fire & so if that person got hurt, he or she can only blame themselves.

What I'm trying to say is, don't feel guilty alright? You didn't take a gun pointing at me forcing me to wait for your messages or calls, I did it on my own accord.

I really don't have time to be thinking about this, I need to go do my project, busy day ahead & now I'm feeling a slight bit of fever coming, this doesn't bodes well at all.

One message was all it took to break my resolve, I'm just too weak...

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

So this where we say goodbye.

2009-11-01T01:00:00.008+08:00

It's Sunday. Many people would be happy because its the weekend but not me.
Past few days whenever my phone rang, my heart would skip a beat hoping its you.
But until now there isn't anything from you at all.
And so I know what your decision is too...

Today would be the day I will not intrude into your life anymore.
I know its hard for me, but I will make good of my word.
Knowing that you are happy I will be happy too, I hope for the both of you to last long & be happy always.

I had wish things would have turned out better for the both of us, but fate tends to play with me & lead me in circles in my relationships. Well... life goes on.

And so after sorting out my entangled red lines, you are not the one on the other end of my line either & like the others, you left behind an imprint in my heart...

Friday, went to the gym in the afternoon to train with Kenny, I swear just a couple more weeks of such training, pretty sure I'm going to see some satisfying results of course I won't give all the credit to the gym, I at home also got train.

Went to Plaza Sing in the evening to have dinner with Valerie mummy & her friends, ate @ Xing Wang, saw into Weiting Mei, so long no meet she haven't changed much :O
But she too busy to notice me plus I changed my hairstyle & was wearing contacts at that time so highly doubt she could recognise me.

After that went up to arcade, played House of the Dead 4 with Kenny, conisdering we both 1st time playing got quite far into the game not bad liao, but very tiring sia for our hands, the gun was quite heavy(not we weak, but we've been training our biceps in the gym, our arm chui already >.<).
Used our last 2 coins on the basketball machine, scored a total of 140+ points!
Not each la, the both of us + together :x

Was raining as we walked to the bar at Parklane to drink, up to this point I only remember stuff that happen while I'm sober. Pretty much ate some of the snacks they provided, drank while playing cards, so on and so forth. Last thing I remembered was playing "Up, down" with Kenny, then wake up jiu on my house the floor le, door & gate never close, let ah bu gan when I woke up >.<

Never been that drunk till I don't remember what happened at all, lets hope I didn't do anything stupid or made a fool out of myself.

Photos!! But only 3, took more but they turned out very bad because of the lighting.
Ps everyone my phone sucks(SE W980) so please bear with me for the poor quality photo & of course this taken while I was sober!!

Sorry ah, I cannot resist not taking zilian photo :P

Ok I look retarded in this one.

What we drank, Chivas(12 years) & eh...

I didn't get to drink the other, I think it was Martell? I don't remember, but I was told that I wanted to drink that when I was in my drunken state but they lied to me & fed me coke instead -.-

Ok I'm going to dedicate a paragraph for someone who sort of made my day & at the same time, made me felt a slight bit of hurt. I don't want to point names, you should know who you are *wink*
So anyways, I read back our MSN convo & notice a question you asked me which I didn't gave you the full answer at that time.
You ask me why I never wrote you a comment, in addition to what I've said, there was another reason that couldn't said to you directly at that time.
I knew you couldn't get over your boyfriend at that time, which is why no matter how I felt at that time, I didn't wish to let you know, I didn't want to be a replacement.
Don't worry, I don't resent anything about you, I know we're just friends now & I'm happy you patched with him, to re-ignite that burnt out flame with someone you love is not easy & you did it, so cherish it :)
Well I hope at some point we're able to meet up, just go out with a group of friends to play or anything, be sure to ask me ok? Don't assume I'm always busy >.<
And sorry for the late update >.<

Workout & project-ing, waiting for my mac(double cheese & hot fudge sundae!!) arrive.
Ciao!

I'm right here waiting for you, the girl on the other side of my red line, where are you now? What are you doing?

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Still awake!!

2009-10-30T02:47:00.003+08:00

I'mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... still awake!!
Dammit ;P
So anyway... its friday!
It's... friday morning & I have been waiting for a certain call for... 31 hours & counting...
Damn... that sounds really long.
On a side note I should be expecting 2 emails today & if by the end of the day, I don't receive emails from either one of you, you'll get it on Monday, because I clearly stated to the both of you I want it by Friday.
Responsibility & credibility, I didn't point a gun at you & force you 2 to agree, I saw you both nod your heads, I assume you understanded my instructions.
Anyways, we'll see about that.

So I collected my contacts today, gonna officially start wearing them tomorrow, although I fear I'm gonna spend hours trying to take them out, because I had not much difficulty putting them on but god f**king dammit, taking out is just... Zzz...

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Just another day...

2009-10-29T10:35:00.002+08:00

I waited for you the whole night, I was sick, coughing my lungs out.
And what did you do, you just replied: "Sorry... Go sleep bahhs."
I waited the whole night, I calm myself down & told myself I won't get agitated I won't raise my voice (honestly, I don't have any voice to raise also), but in the end... :(
My battery ran out around 6+, I turn off my phone & charged it, one of my biggest mistakes because I went to do other things forgetting about it & I miss the time when you messaged me, because I went to bathe.
I'm really stupid leh, if I had been on my phone the whole time I could have replied on the spot but I missed the chance.
Yes I know I lied that I went to school... I didn't want you to think that I fell asleep, because I really didn't.
You said yourself you would call when you reach home... up till now I dunno if you reach home already or not, I dunno why I just can't stop worrying for you.
I'll just continue to wait...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Everything begins & end as a lie.

2009-10-28T22:20:00.003+08:00

My title is so true, you said you will always be here for me & look where are you now? You said you read my blog daily, but what do you actually know?
All you knew was that I made you unhappy, make you speechless, confused, what about those efforts I put in to cheer you up when you're down, waiting for you when you had no one no matter how late, to accompany you when you're bored.
Have you forgotten those times we had as easily as you said you don't have any feelings more me anymore?

I highly doubt you want to chat with me when you reach home. You'll be so tired that you won't even remember I'm here waiting, but I will remain waiting until you call, because I said I would...

I have been judged unfairly by you, I never had a chance to defend myself, my death sentence has been pronouced the moment I confess my love to you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

I will do what I can...

2009-10-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

to destroy my life... I am now completely incapable of loving.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Wah kao!

2009-10-28T08:54:00.004+08:00

Just woke up not long, I can 100% confirm...
I'm sick...

So about yesterday, well, pretty shit day but at the same time feels ok also.
Morning was doing the Entrepreneur project until about 5am then went to bed, missed my morning lessons, but no matter today also Philip Tan lesson so go today try catch up.
Went to Entrepreneur lesson, found out Yuan Fong sick didn't come, that bastard, I told him the day before I was going to assign work for him & Shing Hoong to do, he dare absent let me see, really don't want to live liao.
Wanted to assign work to Shing Hoong, but when I look at his face... I really can't do it, I dunno why!!
Everytime I look at him face I just feel like putting my fist right through it, I just can't stand the blank expression he gives me & I'm suppose to work with this guy for my project? And look what he's doing in class when teacher is giving the lecture on SWOT (Strength, Weaknesses, Opportunities & Threat, I remembered this without even looking at my book)

Bloody hell!! If teacher wasn't there I really will to give him a sharp kick to his fat ass to wake him up lor! Argh!

Afterwards bus home that time took same bus with Alan, found out that I'm will be stuck with this fellow for ALL 3 PROJECTS!! OMG!! Somebody kill me please... how to work with someone that can't even stand his face????
Omg ren liao lor, bo bian! After this module if ever got any module need to be groups one, I rather solo le.
Really cannot tahan group work, I flogged my Nitec results partly because of group project. Back then I was stupid to pick my best friends to work with, should have picked other people, at least when I tell them off won't be guilty of being harsh, where else I'm abit soft on my friends & tend to not be so harsh if they didn't do anything.
I don't care liao, this time my group members you all want to laze & not do anything, I'll go straight to the teacher & ask to pull out of the group let you all die.
Sorry reality is harsh, but I really don't want to repeat the mistakes I made le, I care alot for my results even if I don't look like.
I made a promise to a few that I will maintain my 3.5 GPA or increase it if possible, I won't let you all pull me down.

So enough ranting, yesterday you called after your paper, brighten up my day at least :)
Know you very pek chek over the paper le so tried kept whatever rant I had wanted to say, don't want to make you have more stress.
Today you'll be having your last paper, messaged you in the morning very surprised to see you wake le, I wonder if you slept at all last night, I hope you did, you need all the rest you can for your paper.
Saturday Val mummy ask me go Escape to celebrate Halloween at night, I wonder if I should ask you along too, scared that you got work can't go.
I will ask you later bah, see what you say.

Now dunno if want to go see doctor or go school, I missed Tan's lesson yesterday I don't want to miss today's one also, but can I concentrate?
Alright time to go do my Entrepreneur project, I heard from Alan his group already finish the 1st section, mines already 85% completed, better go finish it as much as I can.

I had dreamt of us being together, but I can't make it come true without your help.

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Omg!

2009-10-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling so sick now.
Head spinning very badly, got a slight sore throat but more importantly my head feels like being hit by a truck, think I'm just going to turn in soon, really cannot tahan le.
Already taken medicine le but mind not working well enough to blog, I'll update today's properly when I wake up tomorrow.
I'm happy you called today, really resisting the urge to message you now but I don't wish to bother you studying.
So I'll say good night to you here.
I hope you will see into this.

Good night piggy, know you are resting now watching your favourite show & mugging after that, but don't turn in too late ok?
Going ahead to lalaland first, see ya!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

The usual sucky Monday.

2009-10-27T03:29:00.004+08:00

Shit day, don't ask, don't really feel like saying now.

Anyways, feeling very guilty for my actions earlier today.
I know now is not the time for this & I know how much shit you are going through today, you didn't have to tell me, I know.
I've been through it although only once, it felt like it only happened yesterday to me. I can understand the pressure you are going through & the last thing you really need was me who shouted at you the moment you decide to answer my call.

I'm really sorry, had I kept my emotions in check, our chat would have been more pleasant, I expected that we chat properly but of course expectations & reality are often different.
Given a chance to change things, I really wished I had been more understanding towards you.

I know at that moment during the call, those words of mine have pierced your heart without mercy, although you kept quiet I know on my side you were not feeling good at all, coupled with the stress you getting.
You probaly be wondering why haven't I stop since I know all this?
All I can say was, you were right in asking me to calm down which I wasn't at that time, it was just stupid little me, just shooting my mouth off without proper thought or considerations towards your feelings.

I feel very conflicted right now, I don't know if I should message you to wish you good luck again for your upcoming maths paper 1.
I do not wish to pressure you further, I'm slowly learning my mistake, which I hope its not too late.
What should I do? :(

I need to be more understanding & more thoughtful towards you... and I NEED to do it, not just say...

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Thought things out.

2009-10-26T01:02:00.003+08:00

New personal record!
91 hours of no sleep.
Man... thats fucking bad for my health, I really shouldn't attempt that again.
But I guess I sort of got a serious case of insomia for the past few days :S
Alcohol really is the best medicine for insomia.
Really not fun, not enough sleep really makes you do alot of crazy & very stupid things like anyhow think of certain things... if I continued not sleeping I most likely will have a mental breakdown.
Didn't have my proper meals also, didn't quite have the mood to eat.

Checked my phone & realise I'm such a fool, I really should have left you to study.
My apologys again, I know I have said enough 'sorrys' till you're sick of hearing them already, but I know that I'm in the fault & no point in trying to find excuses for my mistakes.

Went out with Val mummy on saturday, usual ECP, cycle.
Wasn't really enjoying myself due to the lack of sleep & just got more emo for fucking no reason.
I knew the messages I sent you is beginning to annoy you, I can tell. Sorry about that.
Anyways back to the cycling, wasn't really much people who went, just 4 person, me, mummy & 2 other guys whose name I can't remember.
I think one was called Ray? The other I really cannot remember but he looks like a slimmed down version of Shing Hong (my Higher NITEC classmate) which I dunno is a good or bad thing considering I'm not on very good terms with him, but they're 2 different person so I shouldn't lump them together.
Cycled like siao lor the whole time, just went as fast as I could, stopped when we reached the east end of ECP, had a break there, chat alittle, then rush like siao back to return bicyle, ps mummy didn't wait for you all :(

Bus 43-ed home, bought bak chor mee to eat for dinner, didn't even finish it jiu went bath and prepare go meet Kenny le.
Went to Social House (near Tangs, @ Clarke Quay) to club, paiseh ah Alan & Yuan Fong, but mummy didn't wanted to go, then I don't feel like ps-ing buddy, so bo bian ps you all instead ;P

@ Social House there drank a black label (or was it red label?) whisky which brand name I forgotten already (memory getting from bad to worse), can't remember how many cups I drank either but I assumed I drank quite abit because at some point I felt like puking, but I controlled because I don't want wait my friends see me like very weak always go drinking only I confirm puke.
But damn, it was really some hard liquor sia, on my 2nd cup which was the cup that i help Kenny tank, I already have a drunk drunk feeling liao.

Around 6+ this morning reach home? Totally blur, just cleaned myself up with a wet cloth then fall flat asleep in my sister's room. Lucky she doesn't use the room (she sleeps with my parents) otherwise confirm tio kp because of the liquor stench :x

Paiseh ah, today's post is abit dry, because some photos are with Kenny & I'm lazy to upload a few from my phone.

Today stone at home, lazy to do anything.
I think you really angry with me bah, because now you don't even reply my message le, although I dunno if you're angry or just wanted to fully concentrate on your revision, I'm guessing the second one, so hope I'm right :S

Anyways its late, I'm hungry, mac has arrived & waiting for me, time to watch The Ugly Truth & eat before sleep, school tomorrow, I can feel the monday blues creeping up on me already.

Virgo

Virgo is earthy & represents the sixth sign of the zodiac. You belong to a group of people known for their perfectionism & highly analytical minds. There's a bit of a joke about how precise & demanding Virgos are but when you think about it, what's wrong with being tidy, organised and clean? In a way, you are misunderstood & your attention to detail, your desire for excellence & hygiene is not as bad as some might think.

You have a rather unusual preoccupation of being extremely fastidious and also critical of the world. Some of the people that know you feel as if your standards are way too high to live up to. If only they knew just how critical you are of yourself! You don't really expect any more of others than you do of yourself. And after a time those that hang out or live with you start to learn some vital lessons about the true meaning of work & achievement. This due to your high standards.

When you do express your criticism of something it's more than likely because you're analysed & summed up a situation correctly before acting out your thoughts. While some people might find this an annoying habit, others will never hesitate to involve you in their work. These people recognise your natural talents & will invite you onto their social scene & involve you in their personal projects, as your expertise is highly valued.

You make a wonderful impression with your skilful insights & broad-based knowledge. Simply put, you are a most interesting person to be with. When others get to know you a little more, you can be a fascinating person with all sorts of useful titbits of information.

On the most practical level you really like to do things properly, meticulously by working through the work or service you perform on a daily basis. It doesn't matter how small or large the task, you take pride in how well you do it. You investigate things before diving in. Once you have all the information required you complete your task to the best of your ability.

Others who aren't quite as precise in the way they carry out their own work find it hard dealing with you. In your own mind there's no point in doing anything half-heartedly. You'd rather not do it at all. You are very clear on this.

Time is also important to you. So you like to make sure you use it well. It would be unusual to find a disorganised Virgo. Keeping a diary and making lists are a favourite pastime of yours. Of course having the right pen & paper to keep your lists is just as important so a favourite hangout for some Virgos is the local stationery supply store. It sounds a little weird sure, but you do need to have the right pen to write with!

You are cautious about all manner of things from how much the food bill costs to what type of person is just right for you in your social or romantic life. You have a hawk eye & can spot an error a mile away. If that food bill is out by 5 cents you'll pick it up.

Your Virgoan antenna is sharp as a tack & you'll pay special attention to the fine detail of any subject matter. You're also very well read & interested in a variety of topics. You consider yourself an eternal student of sorts.

Some people think you're shy & unassuming but this is only because you cautiously like to observe and analyse people & situations before jumping to conclusions. You do have a keen intelligence & a capacity for learning but prefer to make your decisions based on sound judgments. Practical facts are preferable to naive or airy fairy beliefs according to you.

If you're born between the 24th August & 3rd September you really don't like to be the centre of attention. You become quite embarrassed if singled out in the crowd. You'd prefer to remain anonymous. You are the quiet achiever who likes to remain in the background concentrating on getting things done right without too much hullabaloo.

If you're born between the 4th & 14th of September you bring a clear and decisive viewpoint to any matter at hand. You're a quick thinker and although you are logical in the way you live your life, you do have moments of intuition that surprise even you! Don't become too serious though!

Allow yourself to express your youthful & innocent qualities if you are born between the 15th & 23rd of September. Venus, your co-ruler adds sensuality to your character. You will always remain young & pleasure seeking. Growing old gracefully doesn't appeal to you. Life is to be lived to the fullest.

I'm confirmed you have read about my horoscope characters le bah, so I just bolded the part I want you to notice
I'm trying to be understanding as hard as I can, really.

These nights without you has been hard.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Fail-ology part 1.

2009-10-24T03:08:00.008+08:00

*throws stone*
Bounce once, bounce twice, sinks into sea.
*throws another stone*
Bounce once, sinks into sea.
*throws stone*
Bounce once, bounce twice, bounce trice, sinks into sea.
*throws stones*
...

The invisble Post-It notes always remain pasted on my face, each carrying a worry for you.

Just reached home not long, currently sitting at 64 hours 11 seconds without sleep + gym today.
I didn't get through the interview, 1st time I got outright rejected for a job.
The interview ended hours before my message to you, I was just blindly wondering around Clarke Quay, sitting by the Singapore River just stoning away until I felt better enough to message you.
You didn't even asked how it went, yes I know I cracked a joke back to you as a reply, but it was to cover my unhappiness...
After that you I had not heard a single word from you at all.
Went to Changi Beach to stone there till late, my feelings are just took a spiral down, where are you this time when I need you again, more then the other time?
I guess I was long forgetten by you, buried in your studies, or with him, or enjoying yourself hanging out with friends, or just simply wanted to avoid me, to force me to rest.

As for me I sat there, waiting and waiting for your message, waiting for my phone's message tone to ring, seconds seems like hours, minutes seems like days and hours seems like weeks, but your message never came.

I messaged a couple of times, called you even, all I got was silence from you.

I picked myself up & forced myself home, luckily everyone is asleep when I reach home, I did not want any of my family to see my sad face.
Stomach is growling & gastric is kicking in, I didn't had any dinner or even a proper lunch today, but I really did not feel like eating at all, just drank some warm milk earlier.

I've just read your blog, I'm not hurt by what was written and understand what you trying to make me understand.
Of course I noticed the important points of what you purposely highlighted in bold to catch my attention.
The last bolded line was the centre of my attention.
I knew immediately what you are refering to... it was something I had said to you the previous night on phone.
I'm sorry for what I've said to you, I know you are quite tired from my sorrys.
But please if you want me to feel better, accept my sincere apology.

I'm very sorry about it!!
*bows head down*

It's already the 65th hour of no sleep le, I'm still waiting for your message or call, I can't stop worrying about you no matter how hard I try.
I really wish to hear from you soon.
Later on going meet Valerie mummy go cycling & later tonight clubbing with Kenny & my ITE classmates, I doubt I'll have the energy to dance, most likely will just be drinking till I drop dead.
Maybe thats the only way to make myself sleep.
Waiting... still waiting...

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♠Gina: Thanks for the tag.

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.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Confuse... lost.

2009-10-23T10:27:00.003+08:00

I don't know what kind of emotions I have right now?
I really hate those emo feelings in me, its because I let myself drown in sorrow that I begin to lose everything, even her love.

I should have made a silent exit out of her life, probaly is better for her.
I was sure of my determination when I made the call to her, but after hearing her voice & chatting with her, my determination just came crumbling down.
Worst still, I made her cry again, I swear I'm seriously the worst kind of person in this world, my existance bring about her unhappiness..
Hearing her just brings back flashes of bad memories to me, its makes me what to die, last night I was about to lose myself.

Plus the fatigue from not sleeping for almost a day plus is really starting to push me down and yet those unwanted emo feelings kept coming in, I wanted to keep my promise not to show it out to her, but I couldn't control it.

You're right, that personality of mine is really dragging me down, of all the positive personalities I have I had to always show this negative one.

I haven't slept for 46 hours already, I stayed up waiting for your message.
But there wasn't any messge, it never came.
I guess I won't hold anymore hope that I will have a place in your heart le.
Over the past few days I may delete my blog, I don't wish for her to see me upset or anything, then slowly I will disappear as abruptly as I have appeared in her life.

Life now is going back before the time in Changi Beach...
The möbius strip continues...

Time to steel myself for the day to come, housework before I leave the house, gym & finally a job interview.
Where's the Dexter with the unwavering confidence?
Come back back to me please, I can really use your help now.

Run, turn around & run away, run till I can't anymore, just so you will never see into the darkness in my heart.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
The King is losing his mind

Very very tired.

2009-10-22T20:46:00.003+08:00

Very tired, haven't slept for 31 hours, 28 minutes, 19 seconds le
Gonna eat my dinner while waiting for her reply, then maybe go sleep after bah.

I'm forgetting my 1st rule I set a long time ago... never hold any hope in my heart in everything, a king don't hope.

Ciao!

If I was right by you, you won't shed a tear, because I won't let you. I hope I had given you confidence, even if it's just a little bit.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Zzz...

2009-10-22T04:20:00.004+08:00

Bored.Ignored.Lonely.
Someone kill me please.

Enduring is easier said then done.
Suddenly it feels like not even you, read my blog anymore...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Slack course... happy day :D

2009-10-20T21:11:00.004+08:00

Definition of Business Marketing - Marketing is the study of how transactions are initiated, moltivated, facilitated and consummated...

4 Ps of Marketing

-Products
+Need VS Want

-Price
+Penetration Pricing
+Innovation Pricing
+Competitive Pricing

-Place
+Location
+Access
-Promotion-

STOP!!!!

Wah lau wei... school end liao my mind still thinking of school work...
Truth be told, Entrepreneurship is an interesting module, but I can't see how isit related to my bloody course (Mechanical Engineering *catches breath* and Electrical Design, bloody f**king long name!!)

I'm back at school today with a topsy turvey hairstyle (I don't know to style my current hair, too short).
Nothing much today, I caught up pretty fast from all the previous Air-Con Drafting lessons that I missed... well the practical portion not theory.
But I'm a genius, finished the up my first assignment as well as the second one that I missed last week & the third one that was given today.
Piece of cake once I understand whats going on ;P

Got abit of nagging from Mrs Wee about my attendance for appearing for 1 day and disappearing for 3 & a half days (I was sent home on Tuesday remember?).
Mr Moh came in talk to me about the world skills competition thingy, urging me to practise my Autocad Inventor more often, seeing that I got blackmailed into this, I had no choice but to get serious about that bah.
Not because I really wanted to but because it can benefit me in ways such as helping me get into a Poly or U because of the added benefits, so yeah that the bribe that moltivated me.

Collected my new course books today, dammit they're all so dam heavy, had the time of my life heaving those home, I feel like a donkey...
On the way home still let too bloody stray dogs chase, think it because of the delicious KFC dinner that I was holding?
Ran like hell, carrying 4 bloody heavy books, making sure I don't spill my dinner, having my pouch bouncing off my face and nearly letting my spec slipped off cos of my sweat..

Guess I can say my stamina has improved alittle, all that workout is paying off huh?
Didn't feel really tired from all that running ;D
Anyways, maybe tomorrow morning I'll hit the gym before school?
We'll have to see if I can wake up early enough 1st ;P

Now mood feeling quite good, it was nice to hear you voice again after so many days of silence, its all I need to last me till the day your Os is over :D
I'm seriously anticipating and at the same time fearing the day I meet you, because I'm afraid that you make not like me in person.
But I know what I want, I know you have thought that you are not the type of girl for me & that us being together seems impossible.

Girl, push those thoughts away! My feelings for you are real, my need to be with you, to love you with everything I got, is strong enough to crush whatever expectations you think I may have.

This isn't an infatuation or sweet-talking.
It started from the day I sat alone at the beach and has built up more when you told me that I stole your heart.

Bored, zai pai during Entrepreneur lesson, retarded hairstyle right?

Today's donkey is drawn on the mirror, can you spot it?

I will wait for you silently, patiently...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

It's a new week.

2009-10-19T12:12:00.002+08:00

2nd week of school... I'm blogging so... that can't be good.
Which means I didn't go school... again.
Man Mr Moh will surely have alot to say because I miss today's lessons which he personally tell me not to skip...

Oh well, whats done is done.
I need to pull my shit together, I hate it when all the things that get me down come together at once.
Completely destroys my mood to study or do anything.
Nobody seems to understand how I feel, have any of you lost a close relative before?
Can you understand how I was feeling over the weekends? No?

FINE!!
Emotions... are such useless things.
*kills emotions*

I will stop trying to get concern from anyone, anymore.
Its time to climb back up to that top that rightfully belongs to me!

I'm the King!!
*ROAR*
I'm sorry that I've been a burden, it won't be anymore.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Down, down, down, down...

2009-10-18T20:34:00.002+08:00

Nothing happy to update really...
Heard news from my parents yesterday that my father's youngest brother, Uncle Jeffery is dead, died from asthma attack.
I dunno what to say, this is the first time I was affected by this kind of news.
I never been this moody even when both my grandfathers died, maybe because I wasn't close with them bah.
I can say me & my brother was really close with Uncle Jeff when I was a small kid, remember he used to bring me out often, take me to play & buy things for me, never scolded me once no matter what I did, really a good uncle.
We didn't contact for more then 10 years since he had a conflict with my grandmother for certain things that she did out of a folly to his wife & children.
Finally heard news of him, it had to be such grim news
*head goes down*
Hais... :'(

Why do the people who are generally good always die so early?
What about those people that deserved death, why aren't they dead.
This world is so goddam unfair!! :(

After reading a certain piggy's blog (yes, I do check your blog everyday too, for updates), I feel like I died alittle inside, emotions just went further downhill, I really don't understand why... :'(

Have I not made myself clear enough?
Why do you still think that way?
I knew something was wrong, but you said you're fine, you want me to share my problems with you, I can do the same for you too, all you need to is just ask.

I feel like I'm on a möbius strip(yes, Fion I went to look up the meaning) in everything right now, getting to now where at all in life...
I know I said I would never show out my sadness again, but I just can't help it, I couldn't find anyone to talk to, I was on the edge of going crazy, this blog was the only place I scream out all that pent-up frustration!
Right now my confidence is just plunging into a all-time low...
Who will lend me a hand to pull me up?

Guess Eeyore really suits me character-wise, I'm as sad & depressed like him...

I need you... more then you think so.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Noted.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Short update.

2009-10-16T14:57:00.002+08:00

Hai hai, a short update before I go to gym.
Last few days has been a bitch because... MY HAIR IS SHORT!!
So not used to it lor, my fringe is so short I can see everything clearly >.<
And my bad habit of touching my fringe when I'm bored still around, but leh so short touch also a few seconds only *sigh*

Oh well have to blame that stupid section head, when she give me the result slips that time she also didnt comment on my hair need to cut, next day only jiu send me home mid-lessons, dammit!

Anyway whats done is done, no point keep whinning about it...
Argh, I should be at the gym hours ago, but I overslept well not as bad as somebody, who is still soundly asleep at the time of my posting *looks at piggy* -.-

End here time to change & hit the gym!

A special change today for my piggy, a piggy that looks like you!!

Counting down the days till I'm able to meet up with you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Update.

2009-10-15T09:22:00.002+08:00

So long didn't update, I'll update later today when I reach home.

You have not been here for days too...

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Back to school!!

2009-10-12T20:40:00.007+08:00

As promised to my piggy, I'm updating my blog today!
Last saturday went to my Nitec classmate, Qi'En's 21st birthday party @ his house, he stay @ CCK >.<
Travelled there with Kim Chuah then we got lost there had to wait for Qi'En come bring us.
At there kind of awkward because only a few of us :x
Ok la photo time, eh... only got 1 photo got me in it, wan see the rest please go to:

Left to right: ahDeX, Toa Peh Gong, Qi'En, Kim Chuah

If you wondering where's is Toa Peh Gong, look closely at the picture between me & Qi'En, LOLS!

So tiring today! Had to wake up so early to prepare for school, someone also message me thought I haven't wake up hor?
I more zhuai early early jiu wake up le ;P
School was... bad... nah I jest, it was... horrible!!
I feel blackmailed lor, kena forced to study Autocad Inventor!! Grrr... long story, save for another day, actually not really very long la just lazy to repeat & repeat, just the ViPs around me know can le, others doesn't matter.
School timetable is being a bitch ending at 5pm today, tomorrow 3, wednesday 6!!!
And thursday 3pm again, lucky friday maintain no school.
So long weekends for me for another semester!! Yay~~!!
But this sem is going to be stressful, I'm gonna have to give it my best shot!!
Jiayou!! Goal for this sem!! GPA... 4!! RAWR!!
I jest... maintain my current GPA will be good enough le, but I want to at least try to score straight As for my 3 modules ;P

Seriously, I think I need to cut down on my gaming time & devote more to my studies & to someone. Must be clear of what kind of future I want, not wasting too much of my life on video games.
Sooner or later my in-game friends will start to kpkb @ me le, especially my guild leader but for the sake of my future I need to shift my piorities.

My eyesight these days are getting blurry, I really hope my contacts are ready faster, can't wait to stop wearing glasses!! FASTER READY!! I VERY THE ANXIOUS LIAO!!

*YAWN*

Nights slowly becoming sleepless nights with endless thoughts of you in my mind...

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: UPDATED!! As promised!!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

No updates.

2009-10-07T20:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went with Kenny to gym.
Day before slack at home, today also slack at home.
Nothing interesting happened.
Bored~

I wish to see you now.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Qi'En: Saturday will see into liao ;P Relinked you.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Crappiest Mid-Autumn Festival ever!!

2009-10-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

Sians-ology! This year's mid-autumn festival really not as good as the year before lor...
Ok blog about few days back de.
Friday went to gym with Kenny, had lunch @ mac then spent an hour there then left, went to Chin Yin's house to eat mooncakes, because my house don't have, but eat into weird weird kind of mooncake... later know its not the normal kind de, its pineapple filling -.-
After that later in the night went out with Nelson, Teng, Posic, Adrian & Kenny to watch...

FAME!

Crappy movie la, not our type of movie, watch until feel like sleeping...
After movie went to have prata @ Tampines 201 there, hear them talk about their NS the funny & stupid things, around 4am+ reach home, dam shagged.

Next day woke up early, lucky got daddy fetch me & Kenny to Bedok interchange so we had lunch @ Mac since we was early, miracle Yuan Fong & his friend no late, latest was Val mummy's friends.
Reach ECP, wasn't alot people there that day, as compared to previous weekends.
Cycled to the skate park, slack there, made Yuan Fong do stupid stunts at the pit again, really funny to watch him run about like a monkey.

After that went to the food centre to buy some drinks and rest then cycled back to return the bicycles but...
On the way back, accidently hai into mummy fall down & injure herself, shouldn't have taken that shortcut... stupid me >.<

Late return the bicycles got charged for late fees, total $15 for the 5 of us who are late, the guy did not count mummy's share because she feel & got injured (& partly I think it's also because she's a girl + chio... Zzz).
Just for freaking 10mins late... WTH!! Hais no choice lor, just pay lo.
If know likedat I also don't mind falling then won't kena charge for late fees ;P
Stupid ojichan (that guy was actually quite young la, around 25+, so say him ojichan abit not right ;P)

After that went to meet Teng at Orchard cineleisure, since mummy can't come because of her injury, only me & Kenny bus to Orchard.
Ate dinner & then after that meet Gary & Eugene, after seeing there's no movies to watch we went to Far East there to do abit of window shopping.
Nel didn't come because of his own reasons which I'm kind-of-lazy-to-type-it-out.
Gary & Eugene went to have their ear pierce-d, their virgin piercings :x
After that something happen which.once.again.I'm.too.lazy.to.repeat.about.it.on.my.own.blog.
So yeah, Kenny left cause he needed to, left me, Teng, Eugene & Gary.
Went back to Orchard Cine, up to E2Max, met an old PSS schoolmate, played L4D till about 1am+, took NR6 home.
Chat with Teng about both our relationship stuff & his NS life @ my house downstairs till about 4am likedat then finally...

HOME SWEET HOME!!

Sunday slack. Today slack because it was raining like a bitch, made me feel like staying home, wanted to go gym de, nevermind tomorrow going with Kenny.
Played games, watch anime, surf net until now lo.

In another 10mins I've to sms someone to nag her eat medicine le, today a certain piggy very guai, revising for her Os. I shall not disturb her until her medicine time, hehe. When the time comes, I'll bomb her phone till she eats her medicine!!

*evil laughter*

Hard working piggy??!! Impossible!!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Shag-ology, part 2.

2009-10-04T05:42:00.002+08:00

Ps I've to repost the same donkey picture again. Because my face now is serious likedat from the lack of sleep, but this is nothing compared to my both buddies who are currently serving their NS.
Very emotional night for me after a long shag day.
Many of times tonight my tears almost want to come out liao & my heart really goes out to one of my buddies.
Many things to say, I'll save it for when my mind is more awake.
Going to sleep.
Sweet dreams everyone.

I'm touched by everything that you've done for me & I'm certain of my feelings now, I'll wait for you.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Donkey upgraded!! Cuter mah? ;P

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Shag-ology.

2009-10-03T03:56:00.003+08:00

So shag now.
Why am I up so late?
Because although I very shag already from the day @ the gym & have to wake up @ 10am to prepare to go out cycle with mummy & friends, but I just wanted to stay up so I can call someone.
Who? Don't tell you all, only the person who received the call will know when she read this ;P
Hmmmm... quite abit to blog leh, but I brain spoil + lazy so I'll update everything one shot tomorrow.
Just wanted to post so that someone have something to read when she check the blog later on ;P
So I'll will end with a...

PS:I wanted to save this picture for another time, but I guess somebody can't wait. Cute mah? The donkey?

You did not need to steal this heart, it was given to you from the day you messaged me while I was at the shores of Changi.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Exam results & movie!

2009-10-02T13:41:00.007+08:00

Exam results are out!! (click to see enlarged version)
Yay!! 3.5/4 hahas!!
Can't believe lor, I slack, pong school, late hand in assignments!
Still can get 3.5 ah? So if I don't do all that, I get 4 liao?!
Or am I just a genius? Must be la! (admit it piggy! I'm a genius! :P)

Yesterday went to Tampines Mall to watch:

SURROGATES!

Ok la not a bad show, interesting to think what happens to a world when you don't have to leave the safety of your home & live your life outside as a robot.
You can be anyone you want, look anyway you like, & won't have to worry about injuring or killing yourself, reducing fatality rates in times of war.
In one scene during the movie it was shown that soldiers were controlling their robot self from the safety of their main command post, one guy got killed and then he just switched a new robot to continue fighting.
Overall, I would say 7/10 bah. Compared to past few shows I watched recently, not as interesting.

Going gym soon with Ken. Need go prepare, so I'll end with a retarded picture of Kenny.

3 SWORDS ZORRO! NO WAIT- ITS 3 SWORDS KENNY!! Except Zorro is more cool then you! You look slightly retarded ;P
Top picture: Kenny
Lower picture: Zorro, from One Piece

And my dear piggy this is for you...

STOP STEALING MY DONKEYS!! ;P

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Zzz... like to steal so much, steal my heart then... :x

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

RISE & SHINE! PART 2!!

2009-10-01T07:29:00.006+08:00

*AHCHOO*
What was that? Did someone just miss me?
Nah, must be someone scold me, otherwise also won't sneeze.

GOOD MORNING!!
I have no idea why I am awake so early, even after going to bed @ about 3am+.
KAO! My brother is snoring like a bitch, but cant blame him, he haven't slept for... erm... erm...
*count fingers*
52 hours!! Yup 52 hours.
Siao.

Last night's work @ Prime Supermarket was just like everytime lor...
It's a boring-as-hell work and very low paid, for alot of work done.
Used to get about $20+ for just that 3 hours+ of work.
Last night only got $12.50 (each), me & Jeremy agree, unless they get their shitty ass pay up we're never working for them again.

Lucky we last night slack quite abit on the job, fooled around trying to disturb the staff while they work, such as shooting rubber bands at them when they aren't looking.
Me & Jeremy was having fun shooting at this bad tempered old staff, who kept bossing us around (you should see his surprised look when the rubber band smack his face *falls laughing*)

Oh god, wish Nel & Teng wasn't in the army, then can jio them go work this job, can't jio Kenny because people now part of SAF liao le, under contract cannot work for others.
Remembered last time, the 4 of us whatever part-time also work together. Prime-mart stock taking, office renovation work for Albert... awwww... fun days.

Hais, I guess this year's mid-autmun festival won't be same without them around.
Anyways today got a guest coming over to stay, so I won't be blogging until tomorrow, don't miss me too much! Ciao!

Went to dig some old photos out from my Friendster, enjoy!
PS: There was no picture of my working last night, because the staff say I cannot use my camera anyhow snap, like hell I can't also not say I snap their secrets or what :\

Introducing my gay buddies from top to bottom: Kenny, Teng Hong & Nelson!

My evidence of them slacking during work!!

Another picture during work de.
People! Want to snap photos like a pro? Let Ken & Teng teach you!

Everytime I look at this photo I can't stop myself from laughing, I remember this when I treated them to Fish & Co & we each ordered our 1st alchoholic drink, Nelson & Kenny got the shittiest drinks ever! Bloody Mary & Virgin Mary!! Taste like crap!! Hahahahahahahahahahahahahas!

The meal I treated them, that time. Cost me about $150+ in total? But it was worth it, other then Nel & Ken's drinks :x

My 1st birthday present from them & its my favourite belt too >XP

And just a random picture of my sleepy face.

Looks like this one hor? Sleepy also de.

I hope your answer to my message, is the answer that I want.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Of course la! Don't believe next time come down & see me work, if I ever want to work there again ;P

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

WORK!! @ Prime mart.

2009-09-30T20:59:00.002+08:00

想当你一个人的supermarket,
你担心的人都不准靠近.
幸福快乐买一再送一,
预定真爱保护无限期.

That was from Gary 曹格's Supermarket.
Been listening to it since yesterday & very soon I going to work @ a supermarket @ my house downstairs... in about 20mins.
Opps shouldn't be blogging for too long.
GTG!! BB!! CC!! DD!!

*whistles*
想当你隔壁家的supermarket,
二十四小时都欢迎光临.
I peeped at your Friendster profile today, last time I will ever do that EVER!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Dunno what kind of day is today.

2009-09-30T00:28:00.003+08:00

Sians day.
WoW weekly maintenance... Bored like hell.
Nothing to blog today, ciao!

A new king is about to be born.
One that will never show his weakness to anyone again.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Yoosh!! Yesterday's.

2009-09-29T10:55:00.008+08:00

Rise & shine!! Today ahDeX woke up early!!
Hahas, don't ask him why I woke up early, my eyes just so happen to be alittle more hardworking today.
But I know some piggy is still probably asleep & likely drunk in her bed snoring away (come here kope my donkey, hope you dream of buck teeth donkeys chasing you ah ;P)

So yesterday I made omelette rice with Jeremy, having no past experience of making self-prepared omelette rice, I always made the instant type (don't ask me how I got instant omelette rice, I won't tell you!).
Well Jeremy did the cooking, I help with ingredients, so most credit still goes to my brother, Jeremy. A round of applause please!!
*clap**clap**clap*
Ok so we went down together with Vanessa to go buy the missing ingredients, bought chicken chop meat, crab stick & sausages.
Started preparing around 3pm+, I won't eleborate so much so I'll just put up photos for your viewing pleasure.

The uncooked sausages, cut by me (I know, my knife skill still havent improved yet ;P)

Our main ingredients are eggs, sausages, marinated chicken chop & shredded crab stick!!

Abit of magic...
and...
~!POOF!~
The rice is ready!!

Alittle bit more magic...
~!BAM!~
Omelette rice!! We made 3 omelette rice btw one for each of us(me, Jeremy & Vanessa)

I'm sorry to say, there's no unglam pictures of us finishing the rice, so don't bother asking for it.
The verdict for the omelette rice is... GOOD!!
For the first time cooking it, I would say it isn't bad at all.
Room for improvement though, like we can use japanese rice the next time, we used common white rice for this one, have our ingredients cut into smaller pieces...
*stares at Jeremy for saying the ingredient's size are ok*

So I'm mourning over my poor wallet now, didn't take it out of my back pocket the other day while blading & since I kept falling it now become...
Look at the poor condition its in!! :(

My poor wallet... been with my for 1 year already (wow time really flies!), got it last year as a birthday gift from Wendy... was suppose to get a different one from someon- forget it, I'll shop around for a new wallet soon bah.
Time to go eat breakfast!! CP wanton here I come!!

Domo says: "Goodbye!"

~.Tags replies.~
♠Renee ;DD: Kope my donkey! Stupid piggy!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Sleepyhead.

2009-09-29T01:36:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired, my body is still aching...
Blog tomorrow, nights!

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Sunday... OSIM (Oh Shit Its Monday!!)

2009-09-28T01:31:00.004+08:00

Haiyo, why I so late then blog again leh?
I dunno, maybe because I was spending my past 3 hours removing my arm hairs with a sponge??
Anyways... my whole body aches!! That's hardly a good sign, its an affectionate way my body is telling me to... GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND VISIT THE DAM GYM!!
Ah I really should... last time I've been to a gym was like what? 1? 2 months ago?
OK! Its decided! Gym this week! Tuesday! Anyone want to come along?

Anyways was my body aching (it still is!) is because from all that falling on saturday's outing with Valerie mummy, Fion & Edwin...
Why was I falling? Because it was my virgin attempt @ blading & I would say... I'm a walking disaster on wheels -.-
Landed on my butt plenty of times, would serious be bleeding quite abit if it wasn't the guards that saved me & of course a hand or 3 from Fion, mummy & Edwin (sorry for hitting your eye, was purely an accident, I apologise *bows down*).

After an hour or two of blading (fail attempts to blade), had a short break before we went on to cycle.
Fion left because she was meeting a friend, wanted to leave with her but unfortunately my actions wasn't catching up with my thoughts, was seriously tired from the falls & cycling quite a distance (a few klicks) will be sort of a torture (my stamina is bad I must admit, so shut up about me being weak).

But I suck it up & still cycled anyway, did took a long rest @ one of the breakwaters, I seriously felt like a lamp post after Fion left. *Zzz*
Inbetween I wasn't really right in the mind, lost in thoughts cycling, but its over & sorted out, don't want to touch on that again.
43-ed home, stopped by CP's KFC to grab my dinner before HSH (Home Sweet Home, for those shortform idiots who don't know).

Pretty much conclude what I did during this week's outing lor, don't need to say you all sure know I spend the day today at home nursing my bruised ass & ego (a big guy falling infront of plenty of people is embrassing to an extend ok. But I felt awesome when I caused a road block because of my fall :P)

Tomorrow mother start work le, so pretty much breakfast, lunch, dinner ownself settle. Jeremy want to cook omelette rice for lunch/dinner, I got bad vibes but we'll see how it goes, if he's the one cooking then it will be fine, if its me... then I'm not so sure liao :P
Looking forward to tomorrow!!
*prays that Jeremy makes a mess, so I can ask him to clean up because I stupid-ly volunteered to clean up tomorrow & I got bad vibes about that*

A not very good shot, because my handsome face got cut off -.-
Anyways left to right: ahDeX, Fion, Xiao Wei

Don't ask me what I was smiling at when this photo was taken, I didn't even know when this was taken *shock*
I look retarded...

The way I squat & how my teeth is shown brought the image below to my mind.

~.Tags replies.~
♠Jed[L]: Linked!
♣Miki: Thanks, thanks.
♦bloghopper: Erm, thanks. But who are you? Mind leaving your name down? Thanks.
♣Gina.: Eh? I don't remember giving you my new link, how did you find my blog?

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Insomia... wth...

2009-09-27T03:04:00.003+08:00

Soooo tired now sia, my legs are busted...
But I can't sleep :( Been trying to since 11pm until now.
Whatever position I slept my mind just won't shut down.
Dexter ah Dexter why having insomia now?

What am I hoping for? Why was I so stubborn earlier today especially after your call, refusing help from everyone, keep standing up after I fall, why won't I just stay down & give up like I should?
I feel so dam useless, like I wasted all those hours learning something, but in the end I learnt nothing at all, because I seem to turn a deaf ear to other's advice.
Doesn't that reflect everything that seems to happen to me in my life now?

"Keep hopes, because with hope, it brings a better tomorrow."
you said that didn't you?
"Hope is a DISEASE for the soul."
you said that too...
Should I have any hope in my heart or not, can anyone tell me?

Exactly... WHAT AM I THINKING?
When I made this blog I tell myself I shall never hold any hopes for anything, which is why I was truly happy over the past few days, because I didn't have to hope for something that will never come.
WAKE UP DEXTER!!
*slap**slap*
*pinch*
Get your confidence back up, disappoint those that tried to kick you down!!

I'm sorry guys(& gals), this will be my last I show my weakness out, I'll NEVER shed a single tear or emo over anyone. anything or any matter again.
Loneliness is my best friend, instead of rejecting him, I'll trust it more then anyone else.
JIAYOU DEXTER!!

A single tear for you & I walled up my heart.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Annoyed.

2009-09-26T05:08:00.001+08:00

Slightly annoyed by 2 person today, so so late then blogged.
Not much to write, better go sleep now, before I can't wake up later.
Zzz... 4 hours sleep.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Aiyo! Bored @ home!

2009-09-24T21:52:00.005+08:00

Zzz... blogging again!
So bored @ home, been playing WoW whole day, got sort of pissed off with today's raid- sua it's just a video game, forget it pointless to get angry.

Been watching some funny videos on Youtube when nothing to do on WoW.
Like this one here:

This one's dam funny, intro-ed by Teng, watch the whole video to the last part, epic I would say XD

Been tracking Kamen Rider shows recently, now I know some of you would ask me how old liao still watch Kamen Rider, but I would seriously recommand you guys to watch it, some series like Kamen Rider Den-O is really funny as hell.
Even the latest series, Kamen Rider Double is turning me into a Kamen Rider fan-boy :x

Left to right: Kiva, Den-O, Kabuto, Hibiki, Decade, Kuuga, Agito, Ryuuki, Blade, Faiz.

So far already watched finished Kabuto, Den-O, Kiva & Decade.
Still watching Ryuuki, Blade & Double, the new Kamen Rider Double is looking pretty good, loving the main character, he's cool!

Below is Double's OP & henshin/fight video, omg this post today really shows the fanboy side of me :x

Hais, kind of sad today didn't rain, I hope it rains like a bitch tomorrow, so likely that saturday won't rain, not like last week... Zzz...
Slight annoyed right now, so going to end here & go play WoW, cyas!

~.Tags replies.~
♠Fion: Linked you:) Opps, didn't know you would come read my blog :x
♣Miki: Thanks.

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King

Welcome to my new blog.

2009-09-23T21:43:00.007+08:00

Welcome to lonelyking-dom@blogspot.com!
Finally I'm back to blogging!!
Hahas, been really a long time since I've blogged.
My other blog has rotten until I don't know become how le, so create this new one.
Lost alot of friends bloglinks but thats ok, but if you guys happen to be reading this, leave a tag in my cbox including the link to your blog. Arigato!

Alot has happened to me from the time I stopped blogging till now.
Matters that have made me felt every human-ly emotions possible, that also have made me lost my confidence & faith in.
Although my skies have not turned clear blue, I will keep running until I reach my blue skies.

Alright enough about the past, perhaps when the time is right, I would be able to let go of everything & see my blue sky :)
JIAYOU DEXTER!!

Recently been watching quite a few movies with friends, The Final Destination, Dance Flick, Gamer & The Ugly Truth.

Went with Teng, Nel & company, a couple of days before they got enlisted into NS to watch The Final Destination, there were a few scenes that made my skin crawl, but overall its not a nice as the third movie.
Watched Dance Flick with mummy, & Gamer the next day with mummy, Yuan Fong & Alan.
Both shows are awesomely good!!
I have to say The Ugly Truth was the best of them all, can't stop laughing every minute of the show, but it was really weird because I was watching it with Aunty Yin & she like got no emotions likedat one, didn't hear her laugh out loud or anything o.O (or maybe she did laugh, but I was laughing too loud to hear? :x)

On monday went to ECP to cycle with mummy & Yuan Fong, before that went with her to Ubi there to book for BTT, but didnt book in the end, because it was Hari Raya, the office is open for 1/2 day only :(
After that went back to Bedok Interchange to meet Yuan Fong (HE WAS LATE!! *angry*).
Cycled around 2 hours after that mummy wanted to practise her skating so we accompany her, watch her practise or rather we was watching her fall more then we saw her show us the T-brake she was practising (Note here: I still not as bad as Yuan Fong, still went to video her falling :x).
We're going again this saturday! But Yuan Fong not coming & mummy with be with friend most of the time because she needed someone to supervise her skating and since I don't skate I would be left out.
So I invited Fion to come, which wasn't an easy task ok, to convince her to come (hope she doesn't read this :x).

Too much to say so little time, going end here, feeling abit sleepy but VERY hungry seeing that I skipped dinner, time to call macdelivery!! YAY!!

I've found the love of my life, muuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaa-YUCK! GROSS!

And so we ended our relationship watching the sunset...

Dexter(ahDeX), Xiao Wei(Valerie) & Yuan Fong (Dylan), clockwise. LOL! Yuan Fong alot of people say you're a girl! Hahahahahas!!

Me & my mummy :D

Me & Yuan Fong flat from falling into the pit! (we climbed down actually, guess the ladder gave us away, but the pit is really deep, meant for advanced skaters only!)

Slacking & posing for the camera :x

♔
.~♠♥♦♣~.
King